culmination of de kinship..

if procrastination is de thief of time, most people wud now be paupers.. we juz lurve to put off till tomorrow what we can do today. it's not our fault really, dat we tend to procrastinate.. not if ur born with the condition like me..where i'm actually in this thingy called BOP which stands for Born to Procrastinate..me as one BoPers dun get a kick out of de adrenaline rush dat comes with eleventh-hour action. as in people like me cant help it, it's in my genes dulios.. why else would we delay our glorious entry into de brave new world until the doctor's forceps or vacuum force us out frm de warmth of our mother's womb???
okay, move on...

me start to feel dat i aren't naturally endowed with brainy cells, so i have to slog of 4 exams de hard way..sigh, midterm is comin soon. .hate exams to de max..fine, let's face it.. muggin for exams is as fun as whittlin thick logs into pencils, so u cant reli blame me fer putting off revisions till de last minute.. i do wonder, askin de mighty one..why am i afflicted wid this ailment which causes me sucha immeasurable suffering.. but luckily ur fair enuff, coz in return.. u gave me de significant one..de one me heart.. =)

well, yesterday me went to laundry...
a picture of us.. yan was totally wasted, sucha irksome idiotic dumb-ASS.. i dont hate him, just stop messin around with mylife.. i'm not sure whether its de age prob or maturity a person possesses.. thanks brotha for de wonderful things u did.. de lovingness, guarding me, bearin with my shitty attitude.. thanks fer de words u told me last night..
de night started of great, but certain things hit me within..and me quaffed and tossed down liquors like my grandpa's place..to keep my mind unconstrained by those things which i fear most, which alwix creeps into my soul and just learn to breathe.. i'm always like a dying fishy, desperately graspin for air.. thou i'm not in his embrace, but i miss him 24/7.. newayz, thanks brotha..

well, back to me now.. cant help it, he's my fetish!!
at times, i do wonder wat is my dream..

we all have dreams. but in order to make dreams come into reality, it takes an awful lotsa determination, dedication, self-discipline, n exertion.. the instinct within me right now is to dig in my heels, whether i'm feelin on iffy ground but eventually, it will make things more difficult than they have to be.. well, i might not know how long i'm permitted to live.. gimme a lil more time.. there're lotsa more fer me to cherish...
yawnz, gotta go sleep early.


something for de one..