Awaken..

it's early dawn now..
i'm still wide awake..
again, i've abandoned my bloggie..
so much to write, yet my brain is jammed.. me promise will update later..as in de next time i blog..
i am so obsessed with trading yesterday, and now it's known as the age of information..i am still waiting for de official release of their album..
at times, i do wonder.. predicaments hit me hard..all the time.. positioning me in all sorta awkward n discomforting situation..
de soul within me, may i ask a question? wat am i made of? everything seems to be colliding within.. ur sucha delicate soul..
i might lies in scruples today, my soul..
i will not cheat myself or look de other way, sneak or be distracted by superficial perceptions disguised as appeal..entitlement? rescue, comfort or security... in this stage, i'm not a victim... any advantage, temptation, or betrayal wud be an inside job or come from a moment of opportunity in choosin to leave myself unprotected or exposed.. my soul, pls empower me with an expectation and foresee..
i just wish, i cud do more with my smallish hands..leaving aside de bygones..loosen up de weight in my heart..to draw a fine line between certain uncertainties.. at times, i just wish dat i can do more.. but when reality kicks in, i am not capable enuff.. people wanted me to understand and give in..but my limitation is kickin in.. i do wonder, how long can my lil feet support de massiveness of me..i wish someone wud just lift me up..n bear it away..
i'm really thankful to those who created music..my nostrum..restoring me.. music is always my refugee.. it's my soul booster..
-good night-
yawnz