this is cute =), as in the collage thingy.. oh my, at this wee hour my stomach is having rumbles within.. and now i am itching for claypot lou shu fun.. and tff, thanks to limpeh for that.. omg, while im blogging limpeh just buzzed me.. he's finally back for good frm S.A.. for now, i am supposed to be studying but yet i am leeching on inessential stuff.
btw, thanks to papahao i am entangled with this;
newayz, cheerios to lee dewyze.. newayz, i need to stuff myself with fwoood!! newayz, i hv no idea why am i so hyper at this hour..
PLUE!! for those who never heard of it or did not knew bout it, they have no idea why PLUE somehow, nature usually takes it own cause. just like human did at times. in a way, somehow, someone, something rekindled often times, all these thoughtfulness do make you feel gleeful and warm even the miles and the gap doesnt weight in much being compared to those who you thought they are the ones who matter most, but it turns out to be not. at times, its sucha melancholy and heart breaking, but that particular time will eventually fade away. because i know, what needs to be done. i wont pace my foot forward anymore because every step i take, i take it warily and sanely i might loose my compass, but i haven't loose my senses
p.s. thnx to ruffeyz, for reminding me.. how i used to be so happy when i saw this
waking up today make me feel brand new and i am not sure whether it is something good or bad. maybe at last, i finally come to my senses in certain issues. but yet i am proud of what i am
here is a short post, so dont mind those senseless words of mine.
i used to questioned why am i sucha hardheaded one whereby i am so denial and stubborn to make a pace for myself. just one single step and that is all it takes. and i did so. for once, i am being so proud of it because it is what i want all this while. even words cant describe how blessed and fortunate i am for having the one. throughout the test of time, i realise more than what it takes. i always believe in fairytales even though it might be the biggest scam ever to con kids. there are times whereby a person have to grow up and start to banish all these thoughts.
the words that are spoken it cant be revoked. for the first time it might be a mistake, but then, the second time it might be a misunderstanding. but for the third time, i know it was real. it is not a question whereby where will it lead, its a question whereby do you think its worth everything. and my say will be the second one. because it is worth it. and that is all it matters. it is not what you get in return, it is what i did which matters.
for now, we wouldnt know where this trail will lead us to but i'm glad im on the track.
i'll be on a hiatus mode for now and i would not vent much on this lodge. it is better to keep everything to the soul within.
-this time, its in korean where i find it harder to catch me.. for those who fathoms, they knew why music-
p.s. yes, i am in love with my bff whereby i refuse to admit. and yes, i lie to u when i say it will never happen. take good care n rest well, since u're ill
often times, i used to dispute the fact that i'm on this state. i feel that slowly i am loosing myself and the significant things that matters most to me. i used to love before, whereby i love blindly and unconditionally.
perhaps it should be naive and stupid for certain someone. i make a pledge to myself that i won't throw myself out there for any inflictions and to be wounded anymore. the feeling whereby u are just abandoned during the pitch black night in the middle of nowhere and hoping helplessly for that mr. becoming to come. basically, like what someone told me that i've just been rescued from that lair and now i am digging myself another grave.
perhaps i am too good in camouflaging and masking myself whereby beneath of it, i am still the fragile one. as these capability of mine is wearing off, i am slowly unveiling myself to jeopardies.
i've never changed much within the soul, that i am still the vunerable one, breathe eating in the love that i need and the shelter that keep me safe from everything. those darkest hours and bygones are still leeching on me. even a slight glimpse on that very knife will wound me and make me bleed.
all this while i keep it within, whereby u existed before u knew
the difference is that i refused to concede, fearing the worst to come about. that is why i chose to be the keeper. but you chose to walkaway, once.. the difference is that, i never..
for now, i found the very answer i needed and its you who havent found yours..
this is how i started my day, with tunes and my expresso frap =) although there's some displeasing moment this morning, but who cares as long as i am in good hands and dote on
Everybody needs inspiration, Everbody needs a song. A beautiful melody, When the night's are long. Cause there is no guarantee, That this love is easy.
And when my world is falling apart. When there's no light to break up the dark, That's when I, I, I look at you. When the waves are flooding the shore, and I can't find my way home anymore. That's when I look at you.
When I look at you, I see forgiveness, I see the truth. You love me for who I am, Like the stars hold the moon, Right there where they belong. and I know im not alone.
Yeah when my world is falling apart, When there's no light to break up the dark, That's when I, I, I look at you. When the waves are flooding the shore, and I can't find my way home anymore, That's when I look at you.
You, appear just like a dream to me. Just like kaleidoscope colours, That cover me, All I need, Every breath that I breathe, Don't you know you're beautiful.
-its a rainbow-
