-Random Walker-

there are moments in life where you wish that it would last forever

the footprints and the trails that we paced on leave an impact in our life

often times, there were certain something that you somehow left behind

which is significant and important to you, but somehow u missed it

as for the soul within, i will never repeat that random walk again

because what is happening now, is what i cherish and heart

-FxiSxm-

its a bittersweet symphony
reminded us the fundamental of laughter
the measureless path and bumpy road we took
the years and the bond
through the test of time, it was still sturdy and solid
oh boy, u've secured that very knot on me
oh boy, u've seen the ugly truth and beautiful state of mine
often times, only you fathoms the paradoxical mind of mine
often times, you seem to reach me in the most obscure place
we are both like a fuse of indie jazz routine
where the law of opposite attract is what drawn us together
it wasn't about vanity and the 5'C's
it wasn't about befitting and society outlook
its all about me and you and a dog named boo
(>.<)

you're my bff
you're my soulmate
you're just you
the fixie bear from down the hill

-Augmented-

slowly, i'm pacing off from the rollercoaster ride i am in. Things around me seem to augment by itself and no longer poses a threat to the soul within. for that nanosecond, i feel like everything was colliding and i am barely there, gripping on to anything i can hold on to survive that chaotic moment. i used to question the whyfor and the drastic-ness in life i'm forced to face. everthing was like a repetition itself,perhaps like an ipod turned on shuffle mode whereby u effing hate that particular song and it seems like that was the only euphony in your playlist. worst still, the battery was like forever.

at times, living your life like a sadist or pessimist will eventually ruin your very own life. fools like u needed a reality slap badly. dont u fools know that those around you are somehow stuck in the same state you are in and they suffer from those consequences you've caused. at times, prohibiting those vunerability of yours from residing is a good thing. people used to be caught in their own fixation about how the world spins and in the long run, these delusions of theirs became so surreal that they no longer can differentiate between fiction and reality.

newayz, here i express my gratitude to those who assisted me and im thankful to the special ones for that crying shoulder i needed badly during those rough times.

so i am done for the short post of the month and the woman is now on the run

ciao bella

-Abstract-

it was tainted

it feels like looking through a fish eye lens

everyone and everything was hermit like

at times it looks like duality

it was way surpasses picasso's imaginations

it was way behold the heart of beholder

you lay your eyes to it

you lay your touch through those fingers

its like a form of colored patches and puzzlement

the admix feeling of imaginarium and senses arose within

it is mind conceiving

it is an abstract

an abstract of affection

-PictoStart-

knn, i am having rashes all over my body and running nose..
oh my, i'm uber tired and busy since the kick of 2010..
finally, i am havin a lil time to somehow blog a lil and my lodge is pretty dead.
i miss dozing off before 12 n waking up early in the morn..

-bites of mine-

-munches of me-

heck lotsa picto to be ditto on.. and more to come..
i've been pokering, 'chuk moong', ginrami, blackjack and yadas..
drinking from cny's eve till now and chumping 24/7, tar kei and soirees
upcoming:
-karaoke tomorrow night + buffet
-house visiting on fri and shopping. dang, i lost my cam's cable so i need to get one and yes mom, i'll exchange those currency tomorrow. newayz, usd raised a lil.. just a reminder for myself
-justin's b'day bash.. just got him this cute photoelectronic abc&123 learning device
-class commencing and yet i am still on my unofficial holiday
-vietnam trip
-thailand trip
-genting trip
that is all i can remember for now.
since i've stopped jotting down words on my planner, i am getting a lil jumbled up
bless me

just pondering, is there any place where i can get greentea frap now!
those craves are itching on me
i am going to start my gym right after vietnam, i'm ballooning up like shyt and i need to stop bulging before i have this frantic-ness on xxx.. lol
happy cny everyone

-Jester-

-what a way to start my year.. thanks to ron for that shyt-

happy 2010 my lodge.
here i am inconstant with my deportment again.
for this year, there are heaps of resolutions i head on..
lettering down my thoughts and trails seems to be lessen lately.

there's been alot of ups and downs for me.
it feels like for the past year, i've been evolving from my true form. the alter ego in me seems to take position of what i've become and movin within the parallel of time no longer make any sense to me, while the soul within still resides. i would call it the observer, the one who fathom and tell between.

there are part of one's personality which is mistaken for a divinely created soul.
may it be called the feeling or sensations which and be pleasant, unpleasant or neutral. feelings arise when contact made with the eye, ear, touch or perhaps the mind. when your eyes 'sees', that is all that happens, which is seeing. the eye simply falls on hundred of objects in a day and moves on, but then something else happens. the eye meets a form and consciousness arises and this inevitably give rises to your mind. but then, what the mind perceives in a way is it the act you choose to carry out?

with feeling, there is perception which is the recognition of things and then we are accompanied by mental formations which includes volition. when we consciously act upon what we perceive in a certain way, this is when the karmic results... consciousness which contains all the previous factors makin 4 factors in all, namely, feelin, sensation.. mental formation and consciousness. at times, when mind and matter together make up the illusion of a person. don't you feel some time its hard to tell whether it's fiction or not.

all these arises within me when certain someone make this statement;
'there are 24 personalities in a person. what is your pov about it?'

newayz, check out john mayer and zee avi's latest album

-Conked-

it's an effing tired day for me.

finally, i am done with the passport thingy. i'm sorta immobilized today and got stuck in the immigration department, from 8.30 to 4. what a great day and finally, i am sipping on my green tea frap at the lodging spot. thanks to the ah moi for accompanying me through those dreadful and wearysome hours. oh my, we both are really donkeys in crime.

oh my, i hate you..

damn, i do hate you...

i hate you Burger.. you make me itch for you, you evil ayam special cheese. i had you on kg. malaysia and now i am longing for you. what had you done to me. why are you so tempting and tantalizing. you are sucha mean one.. sucha succulent one. dang, i'm so gonna have you tonight.

december should be a festive and moolah sucking month for everybody.

but there's a little extra for the donks. what a nice way to start the month with presentation tomorrow and assignments due. sleepovers are like weekly to me now.

oh my, can i just graduate faster and travel.

the woman is on the move now.

maxis centre and optical shop will be my next destination.

ciao bella

-FurBall-

I'm pretty weary lately and i'm kind of skeptical towards certain issues..
I'm really tired lately and i slept for almost 12 hours yesterday
The trail of mine:

• running here and there for errands
• engaged in some sorta melee
• supposed to study law, but then met up with the ladies and went for uber deli duck rice at some ulu place in kg. pandan. and thanks to lil, we went to queen's park. my total damage of x1 perfume, x1 polo shirt, x1 makeup, x1 long sleeve and nearly x1 bag.
• having sleepovers at lil's place.
• went for ketchup sessione with the bear and p.yee at a new lodging spot in tmn. desa. then head on to shawn cutler. i pretty like what fei did to my strands. thanks to the child for it, whereby it was supposed to be her moment and ended up me and the bear blend in for the fun.
• just came home from the ice cream parlour

tomorrow i need to wake up early to bank in cheques, fix my glasses, pick up lappie and renew my passport whereby i'll be leaving on 11th.

ps: mom, i am going to renew it.. for REAL.. so ya, dont nag

nanites

-Sanity-

it was her death anniversary last friday and i tear a little the day before. even though i get used to her absence, but i still miss her dearly. i miss those tick-tock hours where we used to follow her around and i wish that every new year will still be the same.

while i was packing my stuffs the other day, i found a glass bottle full with sweet treats and tidings of little memo with it. then i saw this bond, a bond whereby it bind us together for sucha time whereby i lost count of the forsaken things and time we cede. was it a tie all this while? we always seem so close but yet so far. i used to believe that we are the destined soulmate. the kinship and connection we share was the one that i never knew that it really exist, where often times when i wound myself, i thought u could feel me and read me. there was once, you used to fathom why i hate those witching hour where it turns me to this nocturnal dork. if i do sway away from you, will you realize my absence? we used to spill our feelings and thoughts to one another because we knew each other like no other. within the years, things changed overly. having a simple conversation seem so bitter to both of us, and the whyfor was no longer there. i am cutting loose is because of what we have become and do we still stand the same in our heart?
'ni hai zhi de wo men de yue ding ma?'

i've moved my tavern to another site, a lodge where it is more confined.

i've started a new trail elsewhere but i will still lodge by once in a while.

-SIMMY-

me found something cool.

3 synonimic Simmy

1. To kick someone within the crotial area with the intent to do bodily harm and severe harm to reproductive organs.(Maybe be commited with a 'steel' toed boot.)
2. An Awesome person, a awesome friend one of the best you will meet.but is shit at life :)
3. An original gangsta found in the streets of Bundoora. Simmy is the founder of Simmy Music© and has produced various beats for such artists as Aeileon El Nino, Prince Rasu, Baby Phil, Josiah, etc.
   

-me heart this animalia jacket by Jeremy Scott. i am still thinking whether i shud get ed hardy or this one.-

-nanites-

-Burn Out-

i'm so exhausted lately and i can't help but to keep things going.

been attending full classes lately, till 5 pm daily and studying nightly.
class today was long winding and slumbersome. 4 hours of non stop lecture really make me feel senseless after that.

as usual, just came home from yamcha session with the cronies and i am still planning what to wear on sat. a blue pinafore or the stripy one?
well, red & the bear came out with the 'back to school' theme cause everybody is turning a deaf ear on the halloween dressed up thingy. it is back to school as in really ah lian blue pinafore and ah beng green ugly pantzu.

the other day, ms. ck and i laze a little and went to il padrino.
the food was good except for the ice choco and the portions.

a little something to cackle about today
some random picto i found in my friend's album

nanites..
will be having bkt for breakfast tomorrow with the cronies at summit
-yawnz-

-Snooze-

lately, i'm jinxed by k-pop.
even my peeps told me i am weird.
newayz, its catchy n kinky.
suit up like gaga, chris & neyo hybrid vocality, t-pain-esque, plus a touch of electronica hip pop.. not bad

oh my, at this hour i should be in a comatose. i'm screwing up my sleeping hour.yawn
yesterday after vik's open house, met up with the cronies at oldtown then head back to red's place for mj and 'chor dai dee' till 9am. yawnz
slept for a few hours, went to papa rich and watch surrogates. then went home to send those interview query to the bear. yawnzz
oh man, i really need to slumber asap where i have to wake up at 10
yawnzzz.
-heart csc-

-Jinx-

the haps lately
-red's open house
-at my lodging spot, from damansara to gardens then to cheras
-thinking bout going to aussie to look for marky
-got a postcard from marky which make me tear and marky feel bad about it
-su finally went back to melb
-i'm kinda broke, not to mention rm1XXX gone in one week
-completing 2 effin assignment & 1 midterm in 2 weeks
-my new itch, satay goreng and 'seeham'
-as usual, yamcha session on fri & sat
-loitering at gardens with the dulios
-addicted to da vinci code game.. 3/4 stages completed. its fun deciphering all the cryptics,anagrams and learning fibonacci sequence. i'm so gonna complete it in a week time and i dont use the guide and walkthrough. i'm enjoying it =)
-done with my dramas

and now, going to vik's open house
ciao bella, xoxo

-Mind's Eye-

time flies and people do come and go, but not everyone stay.
it's time for the soul within to let go of the memories and the keepsakes
i've been really selfish
i'm being unfair to those who care for me dearly
i'm being cruel to those who do heart me
i guess it's time for me to walk away from the unlit dark road
i guess it's time for me to part with you, my bygones
i'll keep everything locked and sealed within the soul
smile, wont ya?







-nanites-

-Simplicity ♂-

it was a random call

it was a random time
♂ waited and told me to come down
♂ brought me to my itch aKa nandos
♂ brought me there at 10, where the workingman was there waiting for us and getting ready to take order.
♂ just make my day by all these plain thoughts
♂ was grinning at me while i'm chowing down those hot periperi chickas and not to mention those potato salad, my crave
later on, we left......
♂ bought me to the ice cream parlour at 11
we make a deal, where ♂ will pick ♂ choice for me and vice versa
♂ got me choco, my heart and i got ♂ rum&raisins =)
me intentionally pick those for ♂, mainly because of the liquor tang where ♂ distaste
♂ knew i was monkeying around, yet he ingested those frown on dessert i picked
every single motion and chatter of ♂, makes me contented
not to mention the 'witticism' he told me
♂ bumped on a mate and greet one another with a simple hi,bye. ♂ turned his head back to me and cackled. i asked why..after minutes of bugging, ♂ told me.....

'♂: his oldman got him a XX car, and do u believe that he actually asked his friends to lend 10bucks for petrol.not once, but often times'

the why for really make me laugh and not to mention those 1% of everything ♂ mentioned
♂ really make my day
it was ended with nat king cole's record
and some silly dance move ~.~

what i heart the most is the sincerity and the touch of simplicity
thank you & nanites

-Chasing Pavements-

今天的天氣很熱。
最近我覺得我的心情很亂。
must be those insomnia

昨晚我聽到有點怪怪的聲音。
是不是我聽錯呢？還是幻想而已？
應該就是媽媽跟我提到的那個夢。
到底那個夢是什么意思？

有時候我覺得自己很脆弱
像個小孩一樣，
很需要人的疼愛
很需要人的懷抱
很需要人的安慰
很需要人的體諒

time is passing me by
wasting those tick tock hours is no longer an option
the soul within the pathfinder will trailblaze through the labyrinth
and i am always what i am

catch me of you can

-Tickled Pink-

oh my, i'm on cloud nine..
finally marky called me all the way frm aussie land..
ahhh, i do miss him.. and somehow, i cant wait for him to be back by the end of the year..
and we're going to genting starbucks again.. i miss those tick tock hours

i'm kinda light hearted today.
it must be those yummy durian mooncakes frm h.yee and that FR paper..
damn, how i wish i could snatch on those papers and redo some of those miscues of mine..

on the other hand, it was the bear's birthday yesterday.
hope that she had a great one in S'pore.
and today, its the faggot's birthday.. and as usual, he claimed his pressie weeks earlier before the official day..and tonight, all of us will be going for a feast..

newayz, i'm having a flu and dozing off soon
nanites

-我聽得到-

-VividAmusementPark-

everyday, i see people come and go

tall short, slim fat, young old and everything sole

the other day, I with look a young tot upon me

gazing around and amazed by the banjo played

the other day, I with look a puzzled man

looking up high and low, while looking heedfully

the other day, I with look a crowd of people

smiling, babbling and paces into the excitement ground

we bonded

we collided

in this thing where we are thrilled and impelled

everything was new

everything was enticing and engaging

it was then when everything started

it’s like a admix field of attraction

driven by the magnetic vim of curiosity

they took a ride

they feel the gentle breeze

it’s a journey of anticipation

we had a blast

we had the rush

we had the taste

the moment was great

the moment was notable

the moment was indelible

but it was just a ride

just a rollercoaster ride

in the vivid amusement park

-xoxo-

-Chocolate Truffles-

i miss you lately
i miss you dearly
do you remember the first time we taste each other
have you forgotten me lately?
when will we rekindle again
you make me feel lighthearted
you make me feel euphoric
you make me feel in exaltation

don't you make me sin
don't you make me grin
i have fallen for you
i have entangled myself with those concoction of yours

somehow, you make me sway
somehow, i'm on a one way ticket
somehow, i'm entangled in this knot you made me
somehow, i'm loosing my grip on you

you always have my back, don't you?
you always have me longing for, don't you?
oh my heart
oh my chocolate truffles

love,
-the pathfinder-