-Hearts-

Happy Birthday you two big tot!!

Love you mom

Love you pa

-some of dadzy's old coll mates-

-everyone were trying to amuse the little one-

-like ma, like son..adorable max-

-somehow it was funny.. poor boy was crying and there goes both of them burst out laughing-

-awww..cute! me took it..credit to me-

=)

-andy was funny..starring at justin boy while he munch on the sweet.. it looks like he wants it-

-cute candles in the form of alphabets-

-adorable-

-take 1.. snap!!-

-take 2.. snap!!-

-take 3.. snap!! lol-

-the no longer boys of the pack, mumzy and me-

-mamily fembers!!-

-glidey heart justy-

-heart u mom-

-faggot-

the post titled 'hearts'
and not to forget, my very heart
=)

♥ heart u ♥

-A to the Z-

the weekend is never better when you're with the ones.
and its always endless and entertaining.. =)
and today its from A to the Z..
seriously, next week lets hv fun!!
i've been a good girl for long, and its time for jimmy/dulio to be back

my dinner =)
seriously its darn good and savory.. mumzy, you're indeed the best cook ever.

see the lomo effect. and the yin&yang of me..

the miss is happy tonight =)
and im slowly embracing life in a different aspect
nanites..

xoxo

-Fairytale-

the weather is really chilly and breezy today.
newayz, its nice to bump into an old friend, mr j.

that heavy rain woke me from my sleep and now i am sipping on my choco. somehow, it enlivens me and make me feel better after having insomnia for countless nights. i've been on a rollercoaster ride again, in a matter of time..everything will break down. maybe that rain pour is what i needed to wake me up from a fairytale that i hang on to or believe in despite of anything.

perhaps i am too stubborn and selfish in a way, and my insecurities and fear are like self destruction to me and the circle of people around me. i have to put a stop and end all these. upsetting the ones i dear is the last thing i wanted to do.
i am turning over a new leaf now and not knowing what may come ahead for me. i will be as strong as i can and somehow take on life and start to accept everything. different individuals, lead a different life. some are lucky and some are caught in complications, some might be lucky enough to find their respective ones, some are still searching and some are just left alone.. living their life as a solitary soul.
i have to admit that i am too vulnerable and i'd fall too many times. for now, i'm afraid that i cant get up by myself and wipe on my own tears and treat my own wound. just for now, im too weak to do so. the courage of facing it somehow is too dreadful and painful to take it.

that very last message i've sent to ur email is what i really wanted to tell that certain someone
i do not want to dwell on things.
the trust is no longer there and i know, no matter what i do or say, its helpless. i dont want to be selfish anymore as i was.
i told that certain someone before that the difference is that u choose to leave before and i never, just that i refuse to admit and face it. and now, i will do what i am supposed to.
i thought u will know me and understand me more than anything.
i thought our trust is strong and solid enough, but it wasnt.
i keep on questioning how can u not trust me and are u too blind with your anger. and u give up everything just for that? but slowly, i start to let loose and stop thinking too much..
like what i've been told before, the past is the past.. and i have to learn to let go.
walking away at times, is the option and it is what left to do.
not because i dont care, its not because i want to.. because that's the only thing left for me to do.
im too afraid to hope and wish.
i will always remember that fairytale and that very 'bad day'

windflower-Jisun feat alex chu

-Into The New World-

i am still what i am no matter what and i will never do anything to put myself in a state whereby i am unappreciated and disrespect. i have enough of shyts of what i've came about.
i dont need the world, all i need is someone sincere and trust
i am emotional often times, so what
i do get teary easily, so what
i am unpredictable, so what
i do need that special someone to hold me when i fall and shield me, so what
im just an ordinary soul and that beating heart of mine aint made of steel
i dont freaking live my life based on people's judgment
im sick of being the one who stay up for and stick around
empty words spoken, are like hollows
no point bringing me to fancy places whereby u dont effing now what i favor most
all i need is devotedness and sincerity and i will give u the world
its not about age or which phase you are on
its all about you, on how far your reach and commitment
time and tide wait for no man, so do i
im not afraid to fear and falter, because by the end of the day its all about what you've trembled on, what u've learned and did u try your very best with commitment, without a faint heart
i might be a jester in disguise but i weight in life solemnly

xxXxx

I want to express this time of sadness,
even if you hear it after all the sadness scattered
Close your eyes and try to feel my shaking heart,
and see the glitter in my eyes when I face you
Don't wait for a special miracle,
the street where we met is right in front of your eyes
I can't change the future and habits that I don't know of,
I can't abandon them either
Please protect me with unchanging love,
all the way to my scarred heart
There is no use for words within my gaze,
time has finally come to a stop

I love you, and at the end of my wandering,
I started to miss that feeling
I will now say 'Goodbye'
to the repeating sadness within this world
On the many unknown roads,
I chase after that dim light
No matter how long it takes, it's something we'll do together!
After all, it's my world where we can meet again

-Fetish + Abrupt-

finally the classes commenced and i have to ditch those late nights outing and from today onwards, i've decided on couple of things.
recently, i do realize alot of things. some of those whereby i used to question and doubt on, some whereby i used to believe and have faith on and heaps more.. i do recalled those pointers from certain someone that all those unsolved will be solved, as time will solve it.
i will fight for everything i want and i will freaking smile to the whole world even though it kills me.

btw, its been long since im having mad fetish over certain something.
omg, loved it when i saw it..
me gonna hunt u down..but im still thinking on getting that baby blue one.. damn, i hate dilemma..


newayz, i need to sleep early from today onwards and i will learn to take good care of myself.. by being less clumsy and reckless. *i nearly chopped my finger off the other day and now i am left with pain and bandage.. -.-*
but look at the bandage

-♥ -

newayz, i hv to be awake by 6.30 and head to gardens tomorrow

nanitez

-Traverse-

time flies and july is kicking in.. hence, half a year gone.

i really do not know why those idiotic thick skinned fellas are simply too good in creating chaos all over and over again. i really do wonder what are you guys up to and besides all these shyts, what are you all good at. even a blardy 6 yrs old do know what respect is. in that effing dictionary of yours, i dont think the word 'gratitude' exist. even it is written, you fools are just too stupid to understand it. one narcissistic, one moronic, one chicken, one irresponsible.. gud shyt seriously, keep it up then.. till one fine day where you're cognizant of your stupidity deeds, it will be the judgment day.. voila!!!

newayz, im uber excited coz i'm watching eclipse on thurs..
but im even uberx2 excited because it's his off day
and im even uberx3 excited because finally we get to go on a road trip.. fwoood!! nom nomzz

being in love with your bff is the best thing ever ♥
and i am the blessed one ☺