Labyrinthine of the Pathfinder

-3days3lives-

2012-01-09T04:19:00.005+08:00

dear soul within,

the pathfinder finally found her predestined one

untainted and kindhearted he is

a big heart and a big forbearance he comprise of

a great soul he is within and a great man he will be

snowflakes will be our aspire

angel will be our keeper, the keeper of faith

through the thick and the thin

he is where home exist

he is where the source emanate

he is where faith will be

he is where life begins

he is the reason

"Yes, its okay to be afraid.

I get scared of the fear and its ripples. We’re not gonna make it out of this bumpy ride without scars and bruises on our feet, but I will still move. And I will carry you with these bleeding wounds. It is not pain to me, because I am not afraid of pain anymore."

i'll find you in the next chapter of our lives

one day, if you could ever remember or stumble upon a girl who sits alone by the bench gazing into nothingness

do greet her and she will hand out snowflakes to you

3 3

-好的事情-

2011-08-18T03:56:00.001+08:00

-I'm sopo-

-Window To The Soul-

2011-08-15T23:47:00.008+08:00

The eyes are the window to the soul
You see through the obscure hazel eyes and unraveled the puzzlement
You pierces through and saw what lies beneath
I have always been an enigma
That raise endless conundrums and torment
Inflicting twinges like no other and still you..

You stand guard
You plighted to shield the soul within and gave refuge
Building stonewalls and bridges of faith
With promises that you will never break
With eternal love and trust

For the heart that you moved
Take the soul within
Because all the windows of my soul are predestined
For yau....

-Nothing-

2011-05-26T02:57:00.006+08:00

Am I better off dead, am I better off a quitter
They say I’m better off now, than I ever was with her
As they take me to my local down the street
I’m smiling but I’m dying trying not to drag my feet

They say a few drinks will help me to forget her
But after one too many I know that I’m never
Only they can see where this is gonna end
They all think I’m crazy but to me it’s perfect sense

And my mates are all there trying to calm me down
Cause I’m shouting your name all over town
I’m swearing if I go there now
I can change your mind turn it all around
And I know that I’m drunk but I’ll say the words
And she’ll listen this time even though they’re slurred
Dial her number and confess to her
I’m still in love but all I heard was nothing
(Nothing, nothing …)

So I stumble there, along the railings and the fences
I know if I’m face to face that she’ll come to her senses
Every drunk step I take leads me to her door
If she sees how much I’m hurting
She’ll take me back for sure

Oh sometimes love is intoxicating
Oh you’re coming down your hands are shaking
When you realize there’s no one waiting

xxXXxx

Hold me down sweet & low little girl
*points mouth*

weeeeeeee...
p.s. alco + books.. weeee

-Refined Defined-

2011-05-23T03:44:00.006+08:00

-Pixelated-

-Mellow Down With Me-

2011-05-16T19:23:00.003+08:00

-The Remedy-

2011-05-16T18:33:00.004+08:00

my old hearts.. <3

-What Are Words-

2011-03-14T18:27:00.003+08:00

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see
How every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

And I know an angel was sent just for me
And I know I'm meant to be where I am
And I'm gonna be
Standing right beside her tonight
And I'm gonna be by your side
I would never leave when she needs me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
And I'm gonna be here forever more
Every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

I'm forever keeping my angel close

it makes me cry... and every word of it is a soul..

-EarWorm-

2011-03-13T16:54:00.004+08:00

im a total idiot..i think i booked the wrong route frm skybus.. stupid airasia -.-
and for now, i have to save up for the coming months.. ahhh, talking bout it makes me go gaga and felt like my stomach is being ransacked by butterflies.. Brissie Brissie...
for now, i'm having a sudden itch for greentea frap.. hopefully tonight is on..
for now, i'm still waiting for the booking to meet up with the doc.. its been 2 weeks plus and im still in the same state..im starting to freak out thou.. and like mom said, im loosing weight and look so sick.. -.-

hopefully the weather will be fine later, so that i can jog and workout..
oh yea, im lucky enough to have a personal trainer.. even though it sucks, but yeah.. haha
oh yea, im planning to change my number.. and digi's data plan is much more cheaper than maxis and i have to admit, maxis sucks..
as times flies, it totally worth the wait..

-Sane-

2011-03-11T15:58:00.006+08:00

-finally, i got rid of my so called ash brown hair-

ps. dont call me lala frm far again...

at times i do wonder why i am so friggin clumsy...
me nearly got bang by at white camry, while i was walking across to the shop and i stoned for a lil while.. and seriously, whats so special bout bieber's hairstyle.. there were like a bunch of high school brats who are so obsessed.. A wanna look like raymond lam, B wanna look like bieber, C wanna look like fei lun hai & yadas.. -.-

oh yea,the new beat by fedde le grand, 'Autosave' is really nice.. and im loving it.
btw, im back to the plain simm frm HG.. i've been putting on my surf pants and baby-t again, with my ponytail..after all, i'm still the silly one..
oh yea, while i was in a rush today..i saw the mother cat when im waiting for the lift..the mother cat is crippled and after the lift closed for few seconds, i cant bear it but to press on the 7th floor..i ran out..climbed the stairs.. meow-ing for her and found her.. carried her and walked all the way down to groundZero..placed her back to the hideout.. and im adopting a new kitty..

im sleepless again and my stomach aches.. and till now, im still having cramps and all.. after whats being said, i do start to feel a lil abnormal..
oh my, im sneezing so bad now..suddenly it reminded me of the hot greentea latte i had at jeju airport..so warm and bliss..
oh my, it was totally unbelievable and you totally got me..
its been a month.....

*i'll pray hard for those in Japan.. my heart goes all out to those who are being affected... *

-Opposite Attracts-

2011-03-10T23:29:00.006+08:00

-adios my lala hair-

im booking the flight now and yes, i am flying solo in two weeks time on the weekend..
seriously, i dont mind all the trouble.. and its the first time i am boarding solo..

btw, thank you for the quote that you told me..
'if you cant make it through the rain, you will never see the rainbow' =)
btw, i have the longest chatroom ever in whatsap whereby it totally lasted for almost a week n its uber active...till now..
btw, the main lead actor in Iris is effing hot.. and my nose nearly bleed by looking at him..
btw, im really going for the distance..

btw, i've been working out for almost 2 weeks.. VS is such an inspiration...but my abs and muscles are aching after doing set after sets..
btw, autumn's concerto is airing now in astro's AEC at 3 am.. well, i'm not really sure about the exact time but i really love the drama alot.. it brings back memories and make me realise alot.. whatever it is, vanness wu is hot and xiao le is uber cute..
btw, should i hit the club this weekend?

oh weatherman, please stop raining on me..

the date of the operation is set and i do hope everthing will be fine..
it worries me alot and whatever it is.. i'll try to sleep early..

相反的我 by 張芸京 is really meaningful..the lyrics are like a reflection of my mind...

-Angel-

2011-03-04T18:07:00.003+08:00

she got wings
she got a halo

today is a great day..
thank you all, for those who make my day..
results were good and work is great..
a lil happy for me.. yay..

even though it never stop raining on me, but i start to love the rain..
seriously, whatsap is good.. now i know the fun of having a bbm.. i start to love the techy world..

im craving for sushi lately, and it makes me happy

stomach of mine, please stop aching

-Tonight..Im In Love-

2011-03-02T19:33:00.002+08:00

oh my, im in love..
oh my.. i'll try to make it...
oh my, it was hard but i'll pull through...
oh my, thank you..

-Sting-

2011-03-02T18:08:00.006+08:00

without realizing, it was someone else who came along. here i am, still thinking bout what went wrong and dwelling with it.. i never saw it coming that is why its pretty hard for me to take it.

all these while, i am believing in it and holding on to it..

perhaps what you told me was true.. i should have just silently walkaway..

what u've told me.. was it even for real??

it was never a deal.. its a realisation and sincerity..

it was never a count and finding fault..

if you truly love someone, you know by doing that it will trigger and hurt that person.. will you still do it? cheating on that person and wounding that person..

you thought that i never realize and understand..

i realized one thing within..first i thought what i did was right disregard of the hefty price that i need to deal with, but then i was wrong.. i will never hurt the ones that i care most anymore..

it takes time to let it go and to accept the fact that this is the choice that has been made.. and i take it for what it is..

if you could ever see, where am i standing now and all the things that went through.. it was not for the fault.. it was all because of you...

have you ever feel and realize the point of loosing something forever which meant the whole world to you?? i felt it and i woke up from it..

this is what you want and choose.. i'll take it..

goodbye..

-Little Things-

2011-02-28T00:22:00.005+08:00

lately, i've been feeding the mother cat and she gave birth to 5 kittens.. one charcoal and four white.. seriously, its uber cute.. and now my cute lil lucky boy is sleeping on my bed and at times like these, he's the sweetest thing ever.. he's been sleeping with me for the past few days..
oh my, im so gonna watch blackswan tomorrow...

mentioning about the kitties, me miss them now.. after i've finished my workload, i'll go for a puff and have a look at them.. for now, the booze is oh so refreshing..

yawnzz...
aches, cramps and nausea is so not cool.. but at least, yiruma soothes me...
it will be a long long night.. and im also... checking on air ticket..

btw, i miss the bear and leng chai so damn much.. =(
btw, i didnt know that a cat do snore real loud..

-Six-

2011-02-27T23:39:00.005+08:00

-A rose must remain with the sun and the rain or its lovely promise won't come true.-

i was smiling while i was looking through those pictos while listening to the good ole songs. i am someone who is constantly emotional and sentimental.
it wasnt the great one who brought us together and its not raining on you.

for now, this is the last goodbye and thank you for making me see the weakness in me.
at first, it was so hard for me to face my own fears and yet, u made me.. and now i am so thankful for that.it was never easy to admit your own wrongdoings and thank you for that reality slap. my heart seem to be lighter.

one thing i understand from you, it was believing in yourself and what you are capable of.
even though i was never the winner but what i've gained throughout, is priceless. perhaps from the start, it was never about winning or loosing. it was pure.

if you thought i've forgotten the promises, i never
if you thought im being selfish, i never
if you thought i would smile, i never
if you thought i've changed, i never
if you thought im not scared, i never
if you thought............ and i never.. it seems so endless. it wasnt just a guessing game, it was something that i crave for.. perhaps, greed do take over lotsa things and i know im no longer sane in it.

till now, im still smiling... and never for once i recall all those bad memories. may it be just for a second or eternity.. but the rain will be gone and i see sunshine. and now, i feel what its like.. i thought all this while i was there, holding the back of your shirt and following the trails of yours.. but i've just realised, those prints had faded and now i am actually walking on a different path. that i'm always finding my way back.. but i guess i was left too far behind.. whereby the fact is that i am always there.. waiting.... because i knew it within that this is the path i choose and i want for so long..

it was beautiful.. it was pure.. it was eternity...
i fell, and bruises myself all over but it was all worth it.. cause everything was too good to be true and even mentioning it now, makes me smile.. =)

thank you...

-Whoa-

2011-02-25T16:03:00.003+08:00

one of the most tragic things I know about human nature is that all of us tend to put off living. We are all dreaming of some magical rose garden over the horizon instead of enjoying the roses that are blooming outside our windows today.

today is an adventure..i can only wonder what treasure awaits at the top of the path.

seriously..i have to do more updates and like what the woman said, its kinda depressing..

You think I'm pretty
Without any makeup on
You think I'm funny when I tell the
Punch line wrong
I know you get me
So I let my walls come down, down
Before you met me I was alright
But things were kinda heavy
You brought me to life,
Now every February
You'll be my Valentine, Valentine

Let's go all the way tonight
No regrets, just love
We can dance until we die
You and I, we'll be young forever

You make me
Feel like I'm living a
Teenage dream
The way you turn me on
I can't sleep
Let's run away and
Don't ever look back
Don't ever look back
My heart stops
When you look at me
Just one touch
Now baby I believe
This is real
So take a chance and
And don't ever look back
Don't ever look back.

We drove to Cali and got drunk
On the beach
Got a motel and built a fort
Out of sheets
I finally found you,
My missing puzzle piece
I'm complete

Let's go all the way tonight
No regrets, just love
We can dance until we die
You and I, we'll be young forever

You make me
Feel like I'm living a
Teenage dream
The way you turn me on
I can't sleep
Let's run away and
Don't ever look back
Don't ever look back
My heart stops
When you look at me
Just one touch
Now baby I believe
This is real
So take a chance
And don't ever look back
Don't ever look back.

I'ma get your heart racing
In my skin-tight jeans
Be your teenage dream tonight
Let you put your hands on me
In my skin-tight jeans
Be your teenage dream tonight

-Gleeful-

2011-02-05T17:26:00.003+08:00

-Fox Rain-

2011-01-12T00:02:00.002+08:00

-catch me if you can-

-You-

2010-12-18T02:33:00.005+08:00

You,

there are stars tonight and the wind is chilly
when I was on my way home today, i was looking at the nearby bus stand. 1..2..ermmm..4… 6, yes.. 6 years ago you were there waiting for me… for the first time, I’ve tasted sucha mad savory nasi lemak. Maybe it was the companion that makes it enjoyable and tasty. Not to forget the surprises and delivery in the early morn, whenever i look up while I’m putting on my shoes I’ll see IT..something wrapped in red and melts me within. I can go on and on with the story telling but it will be wordier and thicker than a telekom directory book.

I wanted to keep things sweet and short.
thank you..wait..i should stop having all these courteous and mannerly moment going on. i just wanted you to know that I do appreciate the little things you did and you, being the silencer and grumpy one.. I know you fail miserably in expressing yourself and always ended up being impatient and quick tempered but this is what I wanted you to be..yourself.. rather than suppressing everything within.

there is one thing you should know..it has always been you..the one that I needed and the one who knew me within..my bestfriend, my soulmate.. and my heart.. a part of you has grown in me, you’re like the painter and I’m this piece of white artblock paper..

i know this might sound corny and so not me.. but..
'I knew I loved you when I realized that there was no one else I would rather laugh, cry and make memories with..'
-ILYLHF-

i'll always remember the promises & good times

-Season-

2010-12-11T14:55:00.002+08:00

It was not the day itself that I will feel special.

This is not what I wanted and I want to search for a place where I belong.

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime
When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person
When someone is in your life for a reason, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed
They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually.
They may seem like a godsend and they are
They are there for the reason you need them to be
Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end
Sometimes they die, sometimes they walk away
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand
What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done
It has been answered and it is time to move on
Some people come into your life for a season, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn
They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh
They may teach you something you have never done
They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy
Believe it, it is real….but only for a season
Lifetime relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation
Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life

-Time-

2010-11-24T01:20:00.004+08:00

你知道吗..
我真的很想念你..
你还记得我们的约定吗?
有很多东西,我真的很想告诉你..

你抬头看..我看见很多星星 =)

现在,
我闭上眼睛..等待你出现

晚安

-New Wave-

2010-11-10T02:03:00.004+08:00

currently listening to Qing Ren

time flies and now its november

for the past one week, things were bitter and dire..

its been long since i'm on sucha state and i totally hate myself

perhaps i wasnt even myself and i totally succumb to it

for now..

i wont know

i wont think

-Picto Board-

-Happy Diwali 2010-

-smile of hope-

-mr.wan & the bear-
i miss u both heaps
lotsa hearts

-the picto explains itself-

-the laughter-

-daddy's love-

-ClubMed Escapade-

2010-11-09T16:36:00.008+08:00

-skyline-

-refreshing-

-crafted-

-mankey-

-on the house-

-serendipity-

-unlax-

-another beach front-

-hearts-

-beyond the bounds-

-no curbs, to the edge-

-innersoul quest-

-happy feet-

-vacant me-

-lighted path-

-artistic-

-a defined rare concoction-

-cool off-

-untainted-

-window of veins-

-Jiffy-

2010-10-31T19:36:00.009+08:00

-adopted love-

-exam drill-

-sexxaay-

adios Oct..

-Fickled-

2010-09-22T15:40:00.005+08:00

im currently spacing out
there are things that i am still searching for
im just stationing myself for now
just waiting for the right tide to hit the shores
with a voice that cannot speak and gather up each emotion
that can’t be put into words and i'll cast them when it hits
as certain within, i've made this far
and i paved it through
and i'm capable of doing so

i found a dusty folder, perhaps i left it there untouched for a long time
i wish i could share it whereby it is sentimental to me, perhaps someone or something makes it significant.
people tend to loose what matters to them when they take things for granted
and i did
chances are given and not all know how to grab it
and i did
its like footprints and traces
and now, i'm somehow puzzled between the crossroad

xxXXxx

She's getting out of bed
At half past ten
She starts to comb her hair
Just an ordinary day
She looks at her reflection
Off the wall
Why do I care at all
Just an ordinary day
An ordinary day
That's hurting you
Don't hide out inside yourself
If you only let the sunshine on you

I promise you
You're not alone
When the lights go out at night
When you're feeling lost inside
You're not alone
You're not alone
When your world is falling down
I will be the one around
You're not alone
You're not alone

She's waiting for the bus it's 12.59
She's sitting on her own
Just an ordinary day
She's looking at the people
Passing her by
It could be you and I
They would never dream
Of slowing down
To see if she's alright
Don't hide out inside yourself
If you only let the sunshine on you

I promise you
You're not alone
When the lights go out at night
When you're feeling lost inside
You're not alone
You're not alone
When your world is falling down
I will be the one around
You're not alone

I'm hurting
She's hurting
I'm hurting, she's hurting
I'm so alone

When the lights go out at night
When you're feeling lost inside
You're not alone
I will be the one around

-Slapstick-

2010-09-20T21:36:00.004+08:00

glee..glee!!

the woman is vivacious and nonchalant

and i feel so me lately

must be the daily dosage prescribed by dr.fxi

blithe lozenges and love pellet

Saw it.. heard it.. chuckles..

dracula dies from a heart attack right after catching his favourite vampire series on TV.

he goes to heaven where he's allowed to choose 3 qualities to hav in his next life.

dracula thinks really hard n finally makes up his mind.

first, he says 'i still want to be able to suck blood'

then he continued 'i want to have wings too, so i can fly'

lastly, after thinkin for the longest time..he says 'and i want all women to want me'

whooosssshhhh.. he was promptly turned into a sanitary pad

bear and rabbit are taking a dump in the forest.

bear asks the rabbit, 'hey, do u have a problem with poo sticking to ur fur?'

rabbit says 'nope...'

so bear picks up the rabbit and wipes his ass..

i'mma continue my work, while makan tambun biscuit

then watch fringe, while waiting for dr.fxi

then slumber early, wake up early.. happy X10 day tomorrow

-xOxO-

-Buffoonery-

2010-09-20T01:19:00.006+08:00

-Pixelated in motion-

-prism-esque-

-shutterbug-

-mushy bear hug-

-cutesy max hammie-

-uber adorable-

i have heaps of workload to finish

and yet, i'm still stoning...

btw, i'm sensing something strange lately

*pouts*

-Significant-

2010-09-12T04:58:00.005+08:00

on every 9th is the day whereby i feel whimsy

i see stars and kaleidoscopic cosmos whenever i look at the ceiling

i hear the melody playing in my head

i tend to run to the piles of old newspapers to check for any delivery..outer red, inner brown and dollop sweet..

i tend to snuggle my bolster when i sleep and check on that personal beacon of mine

the sky is cloudy and the wind is chilly

my face is dampen by the tears and yet when i look into the mirror, i see the dimples of mine

and then i recalled those warmness..those whispers..

eventually, it became the remedy itself

and the bandeau around my finger is the charm itself, that shield me from incubuses

and i hear the melody and soft voice

xxXXxx

你日日笑得這麽燦爛我怎捨得你喊
做小丑我都原意爲了搏紅顔一笑

從來沒有這麽想一件事原來有這麽一件事
才值得我們留戀今天為你死都可以

從前有那三個字天天講你知雖然沒新意但有意思
我儲埋儲埋這麽多詩句我只想你可以跟我一起笑
從前那三個字人人都鐘意好不可思議
但是又有幾個人真正明白那意思我只知道我只想你快樂

趁住人多多講講心裏話咁先至值囘票價
從此得你知我任何事都不會怕
從來沒有這麽想一件事原來有這麽一件事
才值得我們留戀今天真的為你死都可以

從前有那三個字天天講你知雖然沒新意但有意思
我儲埋儲埋這麽多詩句我只想你可以跟我一起笑
從前那三個字人人都鐘意好不可思議
但是又有幾個人真正明白那意思我只知道我只想你快樂

就算今天不再闖過昨日我怎麽講都無謂
就算今天不再闖過昨日我願意等下去
再等下去再等下去

-Hiatus-

2010-08-31T17:45:00.006+08:00

oh baby baby baby babe
how long am i supposed to wait?

i think about you nightly

oh can u tell im loosin sleep?

the folded papers for offerings

-flower-

-shutterbug-

-love-

-jjjjjjjengga-

-finest-

-Glimpse-

2010-08-12T02:27:00.004+08:00

'I like nonsense. It wakes up the brain cells. '
Dr. Seuss

Good humor is a tonic for mind and body. It is the best antidote for anxiety and depression. It is a business asset. It attracts and keep friends. It lightens human burdens. It is the direct route to serenity and contentment.

-Merry Go Round-

2010-08-05T01:38:00.003+08:00

finally, after days of being bedridden.. i drag myself to the doc..
sigh, look at the size of the pill.. its effing hard to swallow..
the worst part was fatigue and drowsiness..

-Sunset-

-Bliss-

today aint a happy day for me

there are moments in life where u just have to suck it in
having a good anger management and self control doesnt work all the time
chattels compared to a person & life....
its just...
just....
just too shallow...

-Beginning-

2010-08-02T12:40:00.002+08:00

day 2 since the very beginning of my journey
im still feeling unwell and i only feed on rocky sticks today
and my very first cup of coffee since 5 days
i have to get things done within this week
hopefully i recover a.s.a.p

xoxo

-Punch Bag-

2010-08-02T01:28:00.005+08:00

argghh, i cant freaking breathe. my nose are blocked..

im so used to sleeping sideways n its effing annoying when its blocked one sided..
and you, yes you.. mr.fever and his side kick, mr.sore throat.. you guys came along just at the right time. effing good combo..knn

i have my assignment to rush and i dont even know how to start..blardy corp. acc is driving me to the wall.
my eyes are watery and those medi are making me nausea and tired.. how i wish that someone will be there to take care of me..
my body aches and im having cramps on the leg..
even when i'm effing sick, i still have to carry tonnes of groceries and do the chores..
been trying to feed on some rice today and ive been drinking heaps of water.. where it annoys me when u are on pills, and u hv to drag urself to the toilet when ur sober and dizzy.
im feeling fatigue every morning and mood swings are killing me.. i just cant freaking help it!!
my feet is cold and my hands are sweaty..even sweater cant keep me warm..and the only thing i can chew on is strepsils.
and im feeling a little hungry now..thinking of chicken porridge makes my stomach growl -.-
im so so tired..
im so so cold..
im so so sleepy..

listening to 丁噹 -亲人..

-Hearts-

2010-07-31T17:26:00.009+08:00

Happy Birthday you two big tot!!

Love you mom

Love you pa

-some of dadzy's old coll mates-

-everyone were trying to amuse the little one-

-like ma, like son..adorable max-

-somehow it was funny.. poor boy was crying and there goes both of them burst out laughing-

-awww..cute! me took it..credit to me-

-andy was funny..starring at justin boy while he munch on the sweet.. it looks like he wants it-

-cute candles in the form of alphabets-

-adorable-

-take 1.. snap!!-

-take 2.. snap!!-

-take 3.. snap!! lol-

-the no longer boys of the pack, mumzy and me-

-mamily fembers!!-

-glidey heart justy-

-heart u mom-

-faggot-

the post titled 'hearts'
and not to forget, my very heart
=)

♥ heart u ♥

-A to the Z-

2010-07-24T04:16:00.005+08:00

the weekend is never better when you're with the ones.
and its always endless and entertaining.. =)
and today its from A to the Z..
seriously, next week lets hv fun!!
i've been a good girl for long, and its time for jimmy/dulio to be back

my dinner =)
seriously its darn good and savory.. mumzy, you're indeed the best cook ever.

see the lomo effect. and the yin&yang of me..

the miss is happy tonight =)
and im slowly embracing life in a different aspect
nanites..

xoxo

-Fairytale-

2010-07-21T09:37:00.004+08:00

the weather is really chilly and breezy today.
newayz, its nice to bump into an old friend, mr j.

that heavy rain woke me from my sleep and now i am sipping on my choco. somehow, it enlivens me and make me feel better after having insomnia for countless nights. i've been on a rollercoaster ride again, in a matter of time..everything will break down. maybe that rain pour is what i needed to wake me up from a fairytale that i hang on to or believe in despite of anything.

perhaps i am too stubborn and selfish in a way, and my insecurities and fear are like self destruction to me and the circle of people around me. i have to put a stop and end all these. upsetting the ones i dear is the last thing i wanted to do.
i am turning over a new leaf now and not knowing what may come ahead for me. i will be as strong as i can and somehow take on life and start to accept everything. different individuals, lead a different life. some are lucky and some are caught in complications, some might be lucky enough to find their respective ones, some are still searching and some are just left alone.. living their life as a solitary soul.
i have to admit that i am too vulnerable and i'd fall too many times. for now, i'm afraid that i cant get up by myself and wipe on my own tears and treat my own wound. just for now, im too weak to do so. the courage of facing it somehow is too dreadful and painful to take it.

that very last message i've sent to ur email is what i really wanted to tell that certain someone
i do not want to dwell on things.
the trust is no longer there and i know, no matter what i do or say, its helpless. i dont want to be selfish anymore as i was.
i told that certain someone before that the difference is that u choose to leave before and i never, just that i refuse to admit and face it. and now, i will do what i am supposed to.
i thought u will know me and understand me more than anything.
i thought our trust is strong and solid enough, but it wasnt.
i keep on questioning how can u not trust me and are u too blind with your anger. and u give up everything just for that? but slowly, i start to let loose and stop thinking too much..
like what i've been told before, the past is the past.. and i have to learn to let go.
walking away at times, is the option and it is what left to do.
not because i dont care, its not because i want to.. because that's the only thing left for me to do.
im too afraid to hope and wish.
i will always remember that fairytale and that very 'bad day'

windflower-Jisun feat alex chu

-Into The New World-

2010-07-17T03:35:00.004+08:00

i am still what i am no matter what and i will never do anything to put myself in a state whereby i am unappreciated and disrespect. i have enough of shyts of what i've came about.
i dont need the world, all i need is someone sincere and trust
i am emotional often times, so what
i do get teary easily, so what
i am unpredictable, so what
i do need that special someone to hold me when i fall and shield me, so what
im just an ordinary soul and that beating heart of mine aint made of steel
i dont freaking live my life based on people's judgment
im sick of being the one who stay up for and stick around
empty words spoken, are like hollows
no point bringing me to fancy places whereby u dont effing now what i favor most
all i need is devotedness and sincerity and i will give u the world
its not about age or which phase you are on
its all about you, on how far your reach and commitment
time and tide wait for no man, so do i
im not afraid to fear and falter, because by the end of the day its all about what you've trembled on, what u've learned and did u try your very best with commitment, without a faint heart
i might be a jester in disguise but i weight in life solemnly

xxXxx

I want to express this time of sadness,
even if you hear it after all the sadness scattered
Close your eyes and try to feel my shaking heart,
and see the glitter in my eyes when I face you
Don't wait for a special miracle,
the street where we met is right in front of your eyes
I can't change the future and habits that I don't know of,
I can't abandon them either
Please protect me with unchanging love,
all the way to my scarred heart
There is no use for words within my gaze,
time has finally come to a stop

I love you, and at the end of my wandering,
I started to miss that feeling
I will now say 'Goodbye'
to the repeating sadness within this world
On the many unknown roads,
I chase after that dim light
No matter how long it takes, it's something we'll do together!
After all, it's my world where we can meet again

-Fetish + Abrupt-

2010-07-15T23:45:00.007+08:00

finally the classes commenced and i have to ditch those late nights outing and from today onwards, i've decided on couple of things.
recently, i do realize alot of things. some of those whereby i used to question and doubt on, some whereby i used to believe and have faith on and heaps more.. i do recalled those pointers from certain someone that all those unsolved will be solved, as time will solve it.
i will fight for everything i want and i will freaking smile to the whole world even though it kills me.

btw, its been long since im having mad fetish over certain something.
omg, loved it when i saw it..
me gonna hunt u down..but im still thinking on getting that baby blue one.. damn, i hate dilemma..

newayz, i need to sleep early from today onwards and i will learn to take good care of myself.. by being less clumsy and reckless. *i nearly chopped my finger off the other day and now i am left with pain and bandage.. -.-*
but look at the bandage

-♥ -

newayz, i hv to be awake by 6.30 and head to gardens tomorrow

nanitez

-Traverse-

2010-07-07T02:15:00.006+08:00

time flies and july is kicking in.. hence, half a year gone.

i really do not know why those idiotic thick skinned fellas are simply too good in creating chaos all over and over again. i really do wonder what are you guys up to and besides all these shyts, what are you all good at. even a blardy 6 yrs old do know what respect is. in that effing dictionary of yours, i dont think the word 'gratitude' exist. even it is written, you fools are just too stupid to understand it. one narcissistic, one moronic, one chicken, one irresponsible.. gud shyt seriously, keep it up then.. till one fine day where you're cognizant of your stupidity deeds, it will be the judgment day.. voila!!!

newayz, im uber excited coz i'm watching eclipse on thurs..
but im even uberx2 excited because it's his off day
and im even uberx3 excited because finally we get to go on a road trip.. fwoood!! nom nomzz

being in love with your bff is the best thing ever ♥
and i am the blessed one ☺

-Saltwater-

2010-06-29T01:17:00.002+08:00

i opened my eyes last night and saw you in the low light
walking down by the bay, on the shore, staring up at the planes that aren’t there anymore
i was feeling the night grow old and you were looking so cold
like an introvert, I drew my over shirt
around my arms and began to shiver violently before
you happened to look and see the tunnels all around me
running into the dark underground
all the subways around create a great sound
to my motion fatigue: farewell
with your ear to a seashell
you can hear the waves in underwater caves
as if you actually were inside a saltwater room

time together isn't ever quite enough
when you and I are alone, I’ve never felt so at home
what will it take to make or break this hint of love?
we need time, only time
when we're apart, whatever are you thinking of?
if this is what I call home, why does it feel so alone?
so tell me darling, do you wish we'd fall in love?
all the time, all the time

can you believe that the crew has gone and wouldn’t let me sign on
all my islands have sunk in the deep, so I can hardly relax or even oversleep
i feel as if I were home some nights, when we count all the ship lights
i guess I'll never know why sparrows love the snow
we’ll turn out all of the lights and set this ballroom aglow

so tell me darling, do you wish we’d fall in love?
all the time.

-Gooey-

2010-06-24T02:57:00.004+08:00

i am kissing my holiday goodbye

though this holiday im stuck at kl, but at least i took a short trip down to melaka and i am contented with how its squandered =D
for the remaining week, i decided to ditch those outings and date my lappie.
finally that drama i've been waiting for is out and i will recommence my fringe marathon.
seriously, i really like to be undisturbed and unmoved...just all the 'un's whereby i am at my comfort zone. not all the time, but i just need it.

ps. love, dont lah deranged, just another episode for the day.. i want!

-Lifted-

2010-06-20T17:27:00.003+08:00

the redolence of roses linger around me when i opened my eyes.
and the chipper of the birdy twitter me good morning.
oh yea, and that burned smell from the kitchen reminded me of the very first cupcake i baked.
not to mention that flicker on my cellphone is my very own personal beacon that indicates ' you've gotta mail, love'
i heart today =)

happy father's day to you 'Awang'. i dont want to be long winding and all. there a certain things whereby action speaks louder than words and dad, please cut down on the food you're eating. oh yea, be less grumpy and dont get carried away by that uncle francis. -.-

newayz, my holiday is ending soon. time flies... sigh
newayz, im going for a movie tonight..
newayz, i'm lifted with these

-Capricious-

2010-06-16T02:49:00.008+08:00

im slowly coming into existence of cruelty and merciless in life. i've stumbled upon countless optimist in life and the funny part was the ignorant side of them. just because of what we perceived is somewhat the contrary of what they comprehend, they tend to gape on you like a soul being reaped where the only aura u emit is all doleful and hopeless. de facto in every human being, everyone just love to feed on positive remark to have that feel good factor. sometimes, its just too indulgent. the word 'balance' exist for a reason....

"Sweetness is sickness, bitterness is medicine"

praise is like a sweet, excess of which causes sickness.

criticism is like a bitter pill or a painful injection but which cure sickness.

like accepting the bitter pill or the painful injection, courage is needed to welcome criticism and not to be afraid.

the ugliness we see in others, is a reflection of our own nature. things aint complicated as what it is state or said. learning to tolerate other people's view even though you effing dislike it, does not mean you have to follow the ideas and ideals. it is just an ethical view by which life takes on a serious aspect.

im heading off to melaka tomorrow

at times, having faith and pray is the only answer for the uncertain.

but somehow,im certain on the decided.

yawnnnzzz..

ps. a certain statement doesnt mean i am in a dilemma or a down state. to be clearcut, it doesnt mean parting ways. im in a healthy condition and relationship.

-Blabber-

2010-06-07T12:14:00.007+08:00

oh my, finally i am waving my hands to those papers and now i am officially on holiday.

its time for me to make plans for the upcoming weeks to come.

knn, i thought that i should be a little more loosen up for the last paper since i did prepared early. mana tahu i terkena food poisoning and i screw those precious tick tock hours that i needed before exam for final revision and me ended up taking in rainbow pills..

i need to loosen up a little =)

-Hyped-

2010-05-30T03:12:00.002+08:00

this is cute =), as in the collage thingy..
oh my, at this wee hour my stomach is having rumbles within..
and now i am itching for claypot lou shu fun.. and tff, thanks to limpeh for that..
omg, while im blogging limpeh just buzzed me.. he's finally back for good frm S.A..
for now, i am supposed to be studying but yet i am leeching on inessential stuff.

btw, thanks to papahao i am entangled with this;

newayz, cheerios to lee dewyze..
newayz, i need to stuff myself with fwoood!!
newayz, i hv no idea why am i so hyper at this hour..

ciao bella

-Giggle-

2010-05-26T00:09:00.003+08:00

PLUE!!
for those who never heard of it or did not knew bout it, they have no idea why PLUE
somehow, nature usually takes it own cause. just like human did at times.
in a way, somehow, someone, something rekindled
often times, all these thoughtfulness do make you feel gleeful and warm
even the miles and the gap doesnt weight in much
being compared to those who you thought they are the ones who matter most, but it turns out to be not.
at times, its sucha melancholy and heart breaking, but that particular time will eventually fade away.
because i know, what needs to be done.
i wont pace my foot forward anymore because every step i take, i take it warily and sanely
i might loose my compass, but i haven't loose my senses

p.s. thnx to ruffeyz, for reminding me.. how i used to be so happy when i saw this

-Brand New-

2010-05-22T19:29:00.007+08:00

waking up today make me feel brand new and i am not sure whether it is something good or bad. maybe at last, i finally come to my senses in certain issues. but yet i am proud of what i am

here is a short post, so dont mind those senseless words of mine.

i used to questioned why am i sucha hardheaded one whereby i am so denial and stubborn to make a pace for myself. just one single step and that is all it takes. and i did so. for once, i am being so proud of it because it is what i want all this while. even words cant describe how blessed and fortunate i am for having the one. throughout the test of time, i realise more than what it takes. i always believe in fairytales even though it might be the biggest scam ever to con kids. there are times whereby a person have to grow up and start to banish all these thoughts.

the words that are spoken it cant be revoked. for the first time it might be a mistake, but then, the second time it might be a misunderstanding. but for the third time, i know it was real. it is not a question whereby where will it lead, its a question whereby do you think its worth everything. and my say will be the second one. because it is worth it. and that is all it matters. it is not what you get in return, it is what i did which matters.

for now, we wouldnt know where this trail will lead us to but i'm glad im on the track.

i'll be on a hiatus mode for now and i would not vent much on this lodge. it is better to keep everything to the soul within.

-this time, its in korean where i find it harder to catch me.. for those who fathoms, they knew why music-

p.s. yes, i am in love with my bff whereby i refuse to admit. and yes, i lie to u when i say it will never happen. take good care n rest well, since u're ill

-makan time-

-Hooked-

2010-05-17T05:03:00.004+08:00

stop
oh yes, wait a minute mr postman
wait
wait mr postman =)

at this wee hour, i'm still rushing on assignment.. 1.5k words to go *gulped*

and yes, i am still blogging -.-

and yes, the heart lodged by..

and yes, im on cloud nine

even the sticks and roasted bean taste like honey

-its a rainbow-

p.s. another 2 more days =)

-Hark-

2010-05-16T20:00:00.005+08:00

別打開禮物的緞帶

最初充滿期待最後都腐敗

別打開午夜的電臺

別讓情歌反覆再愚弄

而愛並沒有教給我生存

只教我交易虛榮給天真

可是愛讓我們變成陌生人

卻變不了更高尚的靈魂

不要吻我只要抱著我

不要愛我做我的親人

把手借我一天一分鐘

做我最親密的親人

不是誰的情人誰的某某某

就算我全身濕透透
我也不再被誰牽著鼻子走

如果我還握住拳頭

可能我怕我的夢飛走

而愛並不如你想的萬能

不能讓我們不再戰爭

可是愛連慈悲也沒多慈悲

誰愛越深越容易被犧牲

不要吻我只要抱著我

不要愛我做我的親人

把手借我一天一分鐘

讓我還敢做我的夢

做我夢中偉大的微笑的英雄

often times, i used to dispute the fact that i'm on this state. i feel that slowly i am loosing myself and the significant things that matters most to me. i used to love before, whereby i love blindly and unconditionally.

perhaps it should be naive and stupid for certain someone. i make a pledge to myself that i won't throw myself out there for any inflictions and to be wounded anymore. the feeling whereby u are just abandoned during the pitch black night in the middle of nowhere and hoping helplessly for that mr. becoming to come. basically, like what someone told me that i've just been rescued from that lair and now i am digging myself another grave.

perhaps i am too good in camouflaging and masking myself whereby beneath of it, i am still the fragile one. as these capability of mine is wearing off, i am slowly unveiling myself to jeopardies.

i've never changed much within the soul, that i am still the vunerable one, breathe eating in the love that i need and the shelter that keep me safe from everything. those darkest hours and bygones are still leeching on me. even a slight glimpse on that very knife will wound me and make me bleed.

all this while i keep it within, whereby u existed before u knew

the difference is that i refused to concede, fearing the worst to come about. that is why i chose to be the keeper. but you chose to walkaway, once.. the difference is that, i never..

for now, i found the very answer i needed and its you who havent found yours..

yet..

-Murmur-

2010-05-14T12:16:00.004+08:00

this is how i started my day, with tunes and my expresso frap =)
although there's some displeasing moment this morning, but who cares
as long as i am in good hands and dote on

xXyawnzzXx
assignment time

-Ribbonized-

2010-05-09T17:28:00.004+08:00

Everybody needs inspiration,
Everbody needs a song.
A beautiful melody,
When the night's are long.
Cause there is no guarantee,
That this love is easy.

And when my world is falling apart.
When there's no light to break up the dark,
That's when I, I, I look at you.
When the waves are flooding the shore,
and I can't find my way home anymore.
That's when I look at you.

When I look at you,
I see forgiveness,
I see the truth.
You love me for who I am,
Like the stars hold the moon,
Right there where they belong.
and I know im not alone.

Yeah when my world is falling apart,
When there's no light to break up the dark,
That's when I, I, I look at you.
When the waves are flooding the shore,
and I can't find my way home anymore,
That's when I look at you.

You, appear just like a dream to me.
Just like kaleidoscope colours,
That cover me,
All I need,
Every breath that I breathe,
Don't you know you're beautiful.

-Random Walker-

2010-04-27T23:57:00.004+08:00

there are moments in life where you wish that it would last forever

the footprints and the trails that we paced on leave an impact in our life

often times, there were certain something that you somehow left behind

which is significant and important to you, but somehow u missed it

as for the soul within, i will never repeat that random walk again

because what is happening now, is what i cherish and heart

-FxiSxm-

2010-04-25T15:48:00.002+08:00

its a bittersweet symphony
reminded us the fundamental of laughter
the measureless path and bumpy road we took
the years and the bond
through the test of time, it was still sturdy and solid
oh boy, u've secured that very knot on me
oh boy, u've seen the ugly truth and beautiful state of mine
often times, only you fathoms the paradoxical mind of mine
often times, you seem to reach me in the most obscure place
we are both like a fuse of indie jazz routine
where the law of opposite attract is what drawn us together
it wasn't about vanity and the 5'C's
it wasn't about befitting and society outlook
its all about me and you and a dog named boo
(>.<)

you're my bff
you're my soulmate
you're just you
the fixie bear from down the hill

-Augmented-

2010-04-21T15:36:00.002+08:00

slowly, i'm pacing off from the rollercoaster ride i am in. Things around me seem to augment by itself and no longer poses a threat to the soul within. for that nanosecond, i feel like everything was colliding and i am barely there, gripping on to anything i can hold on to survive that chaotic moment. i used to question the whyfor and the drastic-ness in life i'm forced to face. everthing was like a repetition itself,perhaps like an ipod turned on shuffle mode whereby u effing hate that particular song and it seems like that was the only euphony in your playlist. worst still, the battery was like forever.

at times, living your life like a sadist or pessimist will eventually ruin your very own life. fools like u needed a reality slap badly. dont u fools know that those around you are somehow stuck in the same state you are in and they suffer from those consequences you've caused. at times, prohibiting those vunerability of yours from residing is a good thing. people used to be caught in their own fixation about how the world spins and in the long run, these delusions of theirs became so surreal that they no longer can differentiate between fiction and reality.

newayz, here i express my gratitude to those who assisted me and im thankful to the special ones for that crying shoulder i needed badly during those rough times.

so i am done for the short post of the month and the woman is now on the run

ciao bella

-Abstract-

2010-03-27T00:18:00.002+08:00

it was tainted

it feels like looking through a fish eye lens

everyone and everything was hermit like

at times it looks like duality

it was way surpasses picasso's imaginations

it was way behold the heart of beholder

you lay your eyes to it

you lay your touch through those fingers

its like a form of colored patches and puzzlement

the admix feeling of imaginarium and senses arose within

it is mind conceiving

it is an abstract

an abstract of affection

-PictoStart-

2010-02-25T00:56:00.010+08:00

knn, i am having rashes all over my body and running nose..
oh my, i'm uber tired and busy since the kick of 2010..
finally, i am havin a lil time to somehow blog a lil and my lodge is pretty dead.
i miss dozing off before 12 n waking up early in the morn..

-bites of mine-

-munches of me-

heck lotsa picto to be ditto on.. and more to come..
i've been pokering, 'chuk moong', ginrami, blackjack and yadas..
drinking from cny's eve till now and chumping 24/7, tar kei and soirees
upcoming:
-karaoke tomorrow night + buffet
-house visiting on fri and shopping. dang, i lost my cam's cable so i need to get one and yes mom, i'll exchange those currency tomorrow. newayz, usd raised a lil.. just a reminder for myself
-justin's b'day bash.. just got him this cute photoelectronic abc&123 learning device
-class commencing and yet i am still on my unofficial holiday
-vietnam trip
-thailand trip
-genting trip
that is all i can remember for now.
since i've stopped jotting down words on my planner, i am getting a lil jumbled up
bless me

just pondering, is there any place where i can get greentea frap now!
those craves are itching on me
i am going to start my gym right after vietnam, i'm ballooning up like shyt and i need to stop bulging before i have this frantic-ness on xxx.. lol
happy cny everyone

-Jester-

2010-01-11T12:57:00.006+08:00

-what a way to start my year.. thanks to ron for that shyt-

happy 2010 my lodge.
here i am inconstant with my deportment again.
for this year, there are heaps of resolutions i head on..
lettering down my thoughts and trails seems to be lessen lately.

there's been alot of ups and downs for me.
it feels like for the past year, i've been evolving from my true form. the alter ego in me seems to take position of what i've become and movin within the parallel of time no longer make any sense to me, while the soul within still resides. i would call it the observer, the one who fathom and tell between.

there are part of one's personality which is mistaken for a divinely created soul.
may it be called the feeling or sensations which and be pleasant, unpleasant or neutral. feelings arise when contact made with the eye, ear, touch or perhaps the mind. when your eyes 'sees', that is all that happens, which is seeing. the eye simply falls on hundred of objects in a day and moves on, but then something else happens. the eye meets a form and consciousness arises and this inevitably give rises to your mind. but then, what the mind perceives in a way is it the act you choose to carry out?

with feeling, there is perception which is the recognition of things and then we are accompanied by mental formations which includes volition. when we consciously act upon what we perceive in a certain way, this is when the karmic results... consciousness which contains all the previous factors makin 4 factors in all, namely, feelin, sensation.. mental formation and consciousness. at times, when mind and matter together make up the illusion of a person. don't you feel some time its hard to tell whether it's fiction or not.

all these arises within me when certain someone make this statement;
'there are 24 personalities in a person. what is your pov about it?'

newayz, check out john mayer and zee avi's latest album

-Conked-

2009-12-09T16:37:00.004+08:00

it's an effing tired day for me.

finally, i am done with the passport thingy. i'm sorta immobilized today and got stuck in the immigration department, from 8.30 to 4. what a great day and finally, i am sipping on my green tea frap at the lodging spot. thanks to the ah moi for accompanying me through those dreadful and wearysome hours. oh my, we both are really donkeys in crime.

oh my, i hate you..

damn, i do hate you...

i hate you Burger.. you make me itch for you, you evil ayam special cheese. i had you on kg. malaysia and now i am longing for you. what had you done to me. why are you so tempting and tantalizing. you are sucha mean one.. sucha succulent one. dang, i'm so gonna have you tonight.

december should be a festive and moolah sucking month for everybody.

but there's a little extra for the donks. what a nice way to start the month with presentation tomorrow and assignments due. sleepovers are like weekly to me now.

oh my, can i just graduate faster and travel.

the woman is on the move now.

maxis centre and optical shop will be my next destination.

ciao bella

-FurBall-

2009-12-07T00:42:00.006+08:00

I'm pretty weary lately and i'm kind of skeptical towards certain issues..
I'm really tired lately and i slept for almost 12 hours yesterday
The trail of mine:

running here and there for errands
engaged in some sorta melee
supposed to study law, but then met up with the ladies and went for uber deli duck rice at some ulu place in kg. pandan. and thanks to lil, we went to queen's park. my total damage of x1 perfume, x1 polo shirt, x1 makeup, x1 long sleeve and nearly x1 bag.
having sleepovers at lil's place.
went for ketchup sessione with the bear and p.yee at a new lodging spot in tmn. desa. then head on to shawn cutler. i pretty like what fei did to my strands. thanks to the child for it, whereby it was supposed to be her moment and ended up me and the bear blend in for the fun.
just came home from the ice cream parlour

tomorrow i need to wake up early to bank in cheques, fix my glasses, pick up lappie and renew my passport whereby i'll be leaving on 11th.

ps: mom, i am going to renew it.. for REAL.. so ya, dont nag

nanites

-Sanity-

2009-12-01T17:15:00.008+08:00

it was her death anniversary last friday and i tear a little the day before. even though i get used to her absence, but i still miss her dearly. i miss those tick-tock hours where we used to follow her around and i wish that every new year will still be the same.

while i was packing my stuffs the other day, i found a glass bottle full with sweet treats and tidings of little memo with it. then i saw this bond, a bond whereby it bind us together for sucha time whereby i lost count of the forsaken things and time we cede. was it a tie all this while? we always seem so close but yet so far. i used to believe that we are the destined soulmate. the kinship and connection we share was the one that i never knew that it really exist, where often times when i wound myself, i thought u could feel me and read me. there was once, you used to fathom why i hate those witching hour where it turns me to this nocturnal dork. if i do sway away from you, will you realize my absence? we used to spill our feelings and thoughts to one another because we knew each other like no other. within the years, things changed overly. having a simple conversation seem so bitter to both of us, and the whyfor was no longer there. i am cutting loose is because of what we have become and do we still stand the same in our heart?
'ni hai zhi de wo men de yue ding ma?'

i've moved my tavern to another site, a lodge where it is more confined.

i've started a new trail elsewhere but i will still lodge by once in a while.

-SIMMY-

2009-10-27T04:10:00.004+08:00

me found something cool.

3 synonimic Simmy

To kick someone within the crotial area with the intent to do bodily harm and severe harm to reproductive organs.(Maybe be commited with a 'steel' toed boot.)
An Awesome person, a awesome friend one of the best you will meet.but is shit at life :)
An original gangsta found in the streets of Bundoora. Simmy is the founder of Simmy Music© and has produced various beats for such artists as Aeileon El Nino, Prince Rasu, Baby Phil, Josiah, etc.

-me heart this animalia jacket by Jeremy Scott. i am still thinking whether i shud get ed hardy or this one.-

-nanites-

-Burn Out-

2009-10-25T00:20:00.003+08:00

i'm so exhausted lately and i can't help but to keep things going.

been attending full classes lately, till 5 pm daily and studying nightly.
class today was long winding and slumbersome. 4 hours of non stop lecture really make me feel senseless after that.

as usual, just came home from yamcha session with the cronies and i am still planning what to wear on sat. a blue pinafore or the stripy one?
well, red & the bear came out with the 'back to school' theme cause everybody is turning a deaf ear on the halloween dressed up thingy. it is back to school as in really ah lian blue pinafore and ah beng green ugly pantzu.

the other day, ms. ck and i laze a little and went to il padrino.
the food was good except for the ice choco and the portions.

a little something to cackle about today
some random picto i found in my friend's album

nanites..
will be having bkt for breakfast tomorrow with the cronies at summit
-yawnz-

-Snooze-

2009-10-19T05:53:00.005+08:00

lately, i'm jinxed by k-pop.
even my peeps told me i am weird.
newayz, its catchy n kinky.
suit up like gaga, chris & neyo hybrid vocality, t-pain-esque, plus a touch of electronica hip pop.. not bad

oh my, at this hour i should be in a comatose. i'm screwing up my sleeping hour.yawn
yesterday after vik's open house, met up with the cronies at oldtown then head back to red's place for mj and 'chor dai dee' till 9am. yawnz
slept for a few hours, went to papa rich and watch surrogates. then went home to send those interview query to the bear. yawnzz
oh man, i really need to slumber asap where i have to wake up at 10
yawnzzz.
-heart csc-

-Jinx-

2009-10-17T17:56:00.006+08:00

the haps lately
-red's open house
-at my lodging spot, from damansara to gardens then to cheras
-thinking bout going to aussie to look for marky
-got a postcard from marky which make me tear and marky feel bad about it
-su finally went back to melb
-i'm kinda broke, not to mention rm1XXX gone in one week
-completing 2 effin assignment & 1 midterm in 2 weeks
-my new itch, satay goreng and 'seeham'
-as usual, yamcha session on fri & sat
-loitering at gardens with the dulios
-addicted to da vinci code game.. 3/4 stages completed. its fun deciphering all the cryptics,anagrams and learning fibonacci sequence. i'm so gonna complete it in a week time and i dont use the guide and walkthrough. i'm enjoying it =)
-done with my dramas

and now, going to vik's open house
ciao bella, xoxo

-Mind's Eye-

2009-10-03T02:40:00.006+08:00

time flies and people do come and go, but not everyone stay.
it's time for the soul within to let go of the memories and the keepsakes
i've been really selfish
i'm being unfair to those who care for me dearly
i'm being cruel to those who do heart me
i guess it's time for me to walk away from the unlit dark road
i guess it's time for me to part with you, my bygones
i'll keep everything locked and sealed within the soul
smile, wont ya?

-nanites-

-Simplicity ♂-

2009-09-28T04:27:00.007+08:00

it was a random call

it was a random time
♂ waited and told me to come down
♂ brought me to my itch aKa nandos
♂ brought me there at 10, where the workingman was there waiting for us and getting ready to take order.
♂ just make my day by all these plain thoughts
♂ was grinning at me while i'm chowing down those hot periperi chickas and not to mention those potato salad, my crave
later on, we left......
♂ bought me to the ice cream parlour at 11
we make a deal, where ♂ will pick ♂ choice for me and vice versa
♂ got me choco, my heart and i got ♂ rum&raisins =)
me intentionally pick those for ♂, mainly because of the liquor tang where ♂ distaste
♂ knew i was monkeying around, yet he ingested those frown on dessert i picked
every single motion and chatter of ♂, makes me contented
not to mention the 'witticism' he told me
♂ bumped on a mate and greet one another with a simple hi,bye. ♂ turned his head back to me and cackled. i asked why..after minutes of bugging, ♂ told me.....

'♂: his oldman got him a XX car, and do u believe that he actually asked his friends to lend 10bucks for petrol.not once, but often times'

the why for really make me laugh and not to mention those 1% of everything ♂ mentioned
♂ really make my day
it was ended with nat king cole's record
and some silly dance move ~.~

what i heart the most is the sincerity and the touch of simplicity
thank you & nanites

-Chasing Pavements-

2009-09-23T17:12:00.003+08:00

今天的天氣很熱。
最近我覺得我的心情很亂。
must be those insomnia

昨晚我聽到有點怪怪的聲音。
是不是我聽錯呢？還是幻想而已？
應該就是媽媽跟我提到的那個夢。
到底那個夢是什么意思？

有時候我覺得自己很脆弱
像個小孩一樣，
很需要人的疼愛
很需要人的懷抱
很需要人的安慰
很需要人的體諒

time is passing me by
wasting those tick tock hours is no longer an option
the soul within the pathfinder will trailblaze through the labyrinth
and i am always what i am

catch me of you can

-Tickled Pink-

2009-09-15T00:34:00.004+08:00

oh my, i'm on cloud nine..
finally marky called me all the way frm aussie land..
ahhh, i do miss him.. and somehow, i cant wait for him to be back by the end of the year..
and we're going to genting starbucks again.. i miss those tick tock hours

i'm kinda light hearted today.
it must be those yummy durian mooncakes frm h.yee and that FR paper..
damn, how i wish i could snatch on those papers and redo some of those miscues of mine..

on the other hand, it was the bear's birthday yesterday.
hope that she had a great one in S'pore.
and today, its the faggot's birthday.. and as usual, he claimed his pressie weeks earlier before the official day..and tonight, all of us will be going for a feast..

newayz, i'm having a flu and dozing off soon
nanites

-我聽得到-

2009-09-14T01:48:00.008+08:00

-VividAmusementPark-

2009-09-12T03:00:00.006+08:00

everyday, i see people come and go

tall short, slim fat, young old and everything sole

the other day, I with look a young tot upon me

gazing around and amazed by the banjo played

the other day, I with look a puzzled man

looking up high and low, while looking heedfully

the other day, I with look a crowd of people

smiling, babbling and paces into the excitement ground

we bonded

we collided

in this thing where we are thrilled and impelled

everything was new

everything was enticing and engaging

it was then when everything started

it’s like a admix field of attraction

driven by the magnetic vim of curiosity

they took a ride

they feel the gentle breeze

it’s a journey of anticipation

we had a blast

we had the rush

we had the taste

the moment was great

the moment was notable

the moment was indelible

but it was just a ride

just a rollercoaster ride

in the vivid amusement park

-xoxo-

-Chocolate Truffles-

2009-08-24T19:08:00.003+08:00

i miss you lately
i miss you dearly
do you remember the first time we taste each other
have you forgotten me lately?
when will we rekindle again
you make me feel lighthearted
you make me feel euphoric
you make me feel in exaltation

don't you make me sin
don't you make me grin
i have fallen for you
i have entangled myself with those concoction of yours

somehow, you make me sway
somehow, i'm on a one way ticket
somehow, i'm entangled in this knot you made me
somehow, i'm loosing my grip on you

you always have my back, don't you?
you always have me longing for, don't you?
oh my heart
oh my chocolate truffles

love,
-the pathfinder-

-Sudden twitch-

2009-08-04T23:50:00.004+08:00

It seems like I've forgotten u, my privy lodge.
Its been 2 months.. perhaps more...
so, let us rekindle a lil today..

an old friend of mine visited my privy lodge the other day. He told me it’s been long since i've blogged. Come to think about it, i seem to forget about u, my privy lodge. and here i am, starting to blog again.

I started to notice something that my blog seems to be intricately sensible to certain people. perhaps someone who really knows me will know the why for. You see, i am someone who is wrapped up in complexity and i’m like a concoction which is made up of all sort of mega factor.

Only those who see within me will fathom.
‘Catch me if u can’.

Today I was talking to my brother n he randomly popped a question.
‘If there’s a snake and an Indian in front of u, which or who will u kill first?’
Before i managed to say anything, he answered...
‘kill the Indian first because they are more dangerous than the serpent’.
at that moment, the why for of the question really made me laugh hysterically like a mad woman in the public because we were in the middle of the walkway in Gardens.

i start to feel that I am rusting out a little.
Somehow I find it hard to letter down my whither and emotions.
perhaps it might be the weather lately and the mixed up feelings within.
maybe a good nap will do.

love, Labyrinthine of the Pathfinder

-nights-

-Snaptures-

2009-05-28T23:14:00.006+08:00

i am constantly searching for my true nature
human do grow with the parallel of time and there is when maturity weighs in
often times, i used to drone about auld lang syne
where things tend to be simplistic and less convoluted
peoples i run into lately had embraced themselves with 'self-explanatory' order
somehow, it reminded me about those days where i'm this guileless lil girl
where i taught that i can touch those candy bars from the tv
where i taught that one day, i will defy gravity and fly to the stars
where i taught that, clouds are like cotton candies where i can mold and chew on
where i taught that, eternalness does exist
where i taught that.... where i taught that....
but whatever it is, i am just blessed

-xoxo-

Snaptures

-a treat from a stranger i met at my lodging spot-

-the fishing village in Kuala Selangor-

-Preparation-

-my treat from aussie land-

-Mumzy's day-

-sunshine-

-shadows-

neways, i'm heading for a road trip tomorrow
neways, i need to sleep soon due to morning lectures
neways, my alter ego is back and jimmy is residing
neways, gotta go
oyasumi

-Deportation-

2009-05-22T23:18:00.003+08:00

my alter ego is a port key to a soul key or deal,
whose superpower is compatibility in the midst of reconciling dichotomy to interconnect as a whole new entity or 'colour'..

to be or not to be
at ultimatum or rival tensions mounting, negotiating acceptable trade-offs validates our unique perspectives to reflect what each lacks for a balanced voice of truce

when we're together i'm beside myself, so i concede mutual vested interest, incentive or opportunity to my other half for valued consideration.
for only by the power of self-respect in reciprocal vulnerability, need and compassion
"do me and thee consummate we?"

the rest is all a dance on the sidelines of Cinderella pandering or prohibition, or around a bermuda triangle of bottom line temptation to cheat by provocation, promiscuity, or shame..
but here at the gate of impasse, I still have a choice and my pride.

-OneFinePost-

2009-04-27T01:50:00.007+08:00

good day mate...
its been long since i've abandoned my privy lodge..
the woman now is currently loitering at the dulio's crib..
i'm currently earning petty side moolah via mahjong and luck aint by my side..
so she's going to leave it for the taukeh..
good job ey!

i've been pretty busy lately..

2 assignments on hand and heaps of task to complete..

but at least midterm was fine, except for that ma paper..

for the past month, heaps of unfortunate events hit me..

it started with those around me, then my hearts and then me..

well, it hit hard.. and it hits xxxx hard..

things just happen for a reason and only the mighty one knows..

at times, i do wonder what life would be when the ones you ever care about and heart just leave you..

well, putting aside relationship thingy..

it is easy to put up a show but its hard to keep it going..

i feel that i just went to a masquerade party..

i feel that i just went to a broadway play..

somehow it amazes me with their endowed gift, a gift of LIFE i would say..

its funny when someone comes up to you and flatters you with those phrases..

and yet, they are those you longed for.. but yet, you distance away..

oh my, i guess i'm still this lil infant..
i am born a canvas and i'm waiting for the gifted one to paint me..

be a brush and complete me..

naive and innnocent it sound, but i am what i am..

but i'm contented with those fluxes of warmth.. where the hearts always make my day!

screwed up i am, but yet she's blessed..

will update my bygones the next post..

goodbye now, bye bye then..

ciao bella...

-On Cloud Nine-

2009-03-30T00:47:00.007+08:00

she wears short skirts, i wear t-shirts
she's cheer captain and i'm on the bleachers
she wears high heels, i wear sneakers
she's to die for and i 'm on the cold couch
-rofl-

The mollycoddled one!

-Baby J, the Starlet-

-the bratz-

-fwwoooood!!-

-we're both pumped-

Muka - Muka
-comel-

-malu-

-sesat-

-keldai-

heaps to come
2 ass down and 2 to go
late classes tomorrow, hence extra time to schleep
food fest again
i'm getting effin lazy in a good way -.-
taking a short trip back to the kin's lodge
counting my days on the calender for xxxx
april will be a moolah suction month
lol

-oyasumi-

-Frolicsome-

2009-03-27T03:30:00.004+08:00

the first thing i need to do is to snip my effing bangs
second will be completing my ass
lastly, i need to slumber where i slept for only 2 hours yesterday
been really busy lately with assignments and work

the bear will be flying of to aussie tomorrow
even though i'm uber tired and weary, we kept our 'pledge' to you for teman-ing
so do remember to get ur 'BFF' their hearts, especially your SEXY!

will be uploading the bygones when the woman is done with her shyts
and a few lil happies to be merry about
-justin's full moon bash
-anni
-genting
-movie
-mahjong
- 'nim teh'
-makan fest
and a lil something to cackle about
-butt-fuck
-muka priceless
-'BFF'
-names

kthanxbie

-Pash Patch-

2009-03-25T03:54:00.004+08:00

me just heart wed
the day where i am officially unbounded and light
since the dulio ended his papers, he is now officially back to his hype and a full-time dawdler
for today, the other duo are berbusying with their workloads
hence, petty side moolah for the bapok
i started to feel like an effing cask, congested with ice kosong and chams

heaps of it. and it was the second round

-LoiterBug-

i wake up every evening, with a big smile on my face
and it never feels out of place
and your still probably working at a 9 to 5 pace
i wonder how bad that tastes

and soooo gonna gives you hell!
doink!

-WhisperLippie-

2009-03-23T01:03:00.003+08:00

the woman went maniacal for the past hours
i feel like tearing those shyts to bits
ahhh, i missed it
i missed the hotness!

HOT HEARTS

pink elephunk

ahh, i feel like climbing in to one of these
me heart oranges!

the thought of taukeh leaving for work and intern really frustrate me
nullifying my feelings and there i am, confining myself again
heading off to a new loci and new environ
for months and perhaps, it could be years
gosh, i hope its not swizzie
its miles apart and can't seem to travel back often
i rather he's back to sg
gosh, here i am again with this shyt
ahhh, shake me and pinch me!

-Sweethearts-

2009-03-22T02:27:00.005+08:00

i've been slacking off lately
i should keep myself back in track of those bygones
i'm contented with the fluxes of simplicity and littlest things

will be heading to c.p for discussions
arrgghhh, i'm sorta sick of those chows but yet heart the company and environ

i really feel ulu lately
the other day, me went to BBQ plaza and i'm like this kiddo fascinated by those sizzles and fizzles
anyhow, this is the shyt

then yesterday, the cronies mentioned about shabu shabu
since the bear will be kicking off to aussie land
and there i am giving that 5 p face, unoccupied in present bout that shyt
same goes to the 'WATCH' thingy
yes man, scribble me like i'm this blank white paper

lately i've been spammed
with heaps of songs and movies
and those pups are driving me to the wall
ahh, i just cant wait for soirees, trips and stuff-ings
dope man! dope man!
yes, we are dope!

aww man, old town should pay me some moolah for this shyt
charging them extra for loyalty

-Bella's Lullaby-

2009-03-17T14:29:00.005+08:00

a familiar phonetic word that an infant dote on
may it be the the notes to curl in or stanzas from poetry
something which ease the mind back at its peaceful state

to me, its my hymn
to me, is a wrapped in bundled of hearts and serendipity

to me, its like the only euphony i've heard

some say, it's like doses of anesthetic to the veins

flowing through those vessels of a mortal

which put you to ease and sleep

some say, it's like incubuses

but to the girl in the small city with big baggage

its a love song, an anthem to be played on to liven up the soul within

its like a love story play, where Anne and Will were the starlet

standing in the middle of the starlit

even the sweetest love concoction would not taste any better

xX momo Xx

-Momentum-

2009-03-10T01:01:00.006+08:00

damp weather lately and i am hating it.

watched Watchmen and i am hating it, aint what the woman expected
due to those sickening weather, the woman is forced to hibernate

lately, i'm checking out those cheapo packages to xxxx
and i am so gonna learn to surf.. AGAIN.. though i fail miserably on the last attempt

met up with Mr.Vain for a short ketchup.
we were kinda quaint over some shyts and yet ber-philosophy a lil
somewhat, i'm in a superhero hype

somehow, i'm forced to heart it and thanks to taukeh for that shyt

just got myself a new book, the art of war
capturing and exploring the mind of the great one

heaps of assignments for the woman to hand up
and tonnes of buckle up tick-tock hours to set aside
need to ditch those loiters and yamcha sessions

lately, i'm learning photojournalism
while i was at the kin's lodge, the woman picked up this weighty lil black book out of ocd behavior
open it up and flipped it thru
she was captivated by those pixelated pictos where they convey messages and stories
some of it were those should have never been told
dark secrets and footprints of those who have left
and those unbearable sorrows that scarred those innocent ones
left us unutterable
left us gazing at the emptiness

for now, i'm lettering down a wishlist =)
for now, the woman is on a move

-Sky Chord-

2009-03-06T01:49:00.004+08:00

i'm taking in all the breathe eat hours
the woman is pacing on to a new habitation
she is treading on with a beam
at a new loci, on a comeback trail where she is lighter
whereas she is always the girl in the small city with a big baggage
weighing in too much where simplicity is all she needed
-xoxo-

oh dear, its weary now and yet i'm wakeful
must be those 'cham' and 'yadas' (^.^)
oh gosh, i miss those sandy beaches and chows
must be the growling sound and pictos
oh lucky, i'm in good hands now
must be those cronies and superheroes
oh fuck, people are weird and quaint lately
must be those inarticulate tick-tock hours
oh Sir Weatherman.. you are the one to blame

schleep timo!
-simm out-

-Chatterbug of the CrimeCronies-

2009-03-04T01:03:00.002+08:00

-starlet-

s: diu lei lar kan fu
r: petpet hai i want your abalone !! yummy !!!
s: cleaned or not cleaned.. or dirty yet fishy but shaved..
r: shaved please, i dont want hair stucked between my teeth :X
s: aiyo.. syok mar.. make u itch itch. then notti notti.. shy shy*
r: yea lar.. but im afraid when i erect-ed, scared all the waiters away ! XD
s. aiyo.. then i take a fkin barrel to fill it with those plentiful of PROTEINS of you 'chi chi shuen shuen'..
r: please do not spill any of them... i wan each and every kindergarden around klang valley have my registration XD
s: aiyo.. kindergarden only ar...
r: if nt.. the whole world will look like me ehz.. hehehe.. dowan la.. later all the girls hamsap !!!
s: aiyo.. ur face macam 'dai min gui plus ham chin beng'... yau char kuey want ur kukujiao meh
r: wtf.. even my kukujiao look like overnight yau char kuey also very strong eh... like hungry ANACONDA !!!!
s: mmm.... blushing* aiyo.. later seafood pot kena crack ar.. ur fruit basket so juicy.. me like it.. slurpsss*
r: yea, i cracked alot pots before d... with my keng skillz hehe.. HELICOPTER as a recommendation hehehhehe...
s: aiyo.. i thought its turbin spinning on a hilltop.. neh the green green one with daffodils and moo moo
r: turbin not keng.. mine more like a WINDMILL hehehe... FUH FUH FUH *sounds of big wind*
s: oh!!! errected* i love HOLLAND.. if can big big one in AMSTERDAM
r: that sound havent errected yet.. errected will go like BING BANG TUNG TUNG CHIANG !!!!
s: aiyo... drums!!! let me the playa.. with my lil clarinets.. PIK PAK LUK TILIK PIK PAK TUNG!
r: please call ur friends along to bring symbals... chiki chiki chang chang !!!....
s: aiyo.. let find those ah moi with 2 nails stuck on the plane landing papan area.. that can groove with the guitar. JENG JENG JENG! JANG JANG... WAHHH CHIANG!
r: oh, you meant SARA bear ??? heaheahea... yer.. her MA YUN CHEONG very scary oh... looks like gonna swallow my hairy balls off... :(
s: how bout PY... with her dangling pitcher plants... and sum more.. it haven't BLOSSOM!
r: cant! PY cant join the party... later her backbone breakz !! eaheheahae.. you know lar, she got a SENGET backbone.. ahahahaahaahahahaah pik plakzzz
s: but then she can bend it like beckham while her body look like a tunnel full with maggots...
r: omg.. then gonna call the Pestisides Sprayers... heahehae and treat her an ANDY HO hair trim XD
s: gosh... aiyo.. when are we gonna go brazillian wax.. bet PY gonna take a month to shake it all of yo!
r:and cost her TRIPLE of price hehehe... TIRED d la.. lets go home XD !! heaheahaehea
s: pet pet itchy* jiao jiao howling* woooooo!!! scratch scratch
r: alright.. gonna treat you a 7 course meal later XD.. make u full full !! XD
s: i want pudding on top of choco bar and banana SPLIT IT for dessert..
r: not a prob ma'am .. muacks !
s: wet wet* slurrpsss

r&s: KTHNXBIE

-Singalongsong-

2009-02-25T05:25:00.002+08:00

I wrote this song it's not too long
cos' I've been thinking 'bout you
I wrote this song maybe I'm wrong
To be caught up about you

Well I dont know what you think 'bout me
Maybe you think nothing at all
But maybe you could just lie to me
And we could be in love you see

Oh it's a singalong song that's not too long
It's when I think about you that I hear songs
And you can singalong maybe if you want to
Cos' baby I wrote this I wrote this for you

I wrote this song it's not too long
Cos' I'm the one who loves you
I wrote this song this can't be wrong
I don't wanna smile without you

Well I just want to make you happy
but maybe you want nothing at all
and how I wish that you're meant to be
forever and a day with me

Oh it's a singalong song that's not too long
It's when I think about you that I hear songs
And you can singalong maybe if you want to
Cos' baby I wrote this I wrote this for you

In everyway you mean more to me
than you'll ever know
girl I'll do my best to show these words are true
and if you'd like to make a song
and be a perfect harmony with me
I'd find the greatest words sing
so we could write our own romance

Oh it's a singalong song that's not too long
It's when I think about you that I hear songs
And you can singalong maybe if you want to
Cos' baby I wrote this I wrote this for you

Oh it's a singalong song that's not too long
It's when I think about you that I hear songs
And you can singalong maybe if you want to
Cos' baby I wrote this I wrote this for you

Cos' baby I wrote this I wrote this for you

-superman-
giggles*

-BeeeShine-

2009-02-05T02:29:00.007+08:00

been going out alot lately
she is contented with those and those and those
she is loving hoegarden as well. =)

i'm slacking off again
yawnz..
newayz, wishing you all the best girl..
xoxo BeeShine!

mr.hao ordered this, pork knuckle. loving the taste of it but the skin is effing chewy

-starlet fer de dei-

part of us

part of us take 2

bersampat-ing =)

official of the unofficial sibling
and my bra strap malfunction moment!! luckily it was dark and i'm being told
cheapo china stuffs.. gud shyt!

cheese!

yawnz...
i'm a lil pumped up lately, with all those adrenaline rushing thru those streams
i need a lil respite and some hoe!
mwah

-CNY-

2009-01-31T07:15:00.006+08:00

Gong Hei Fatt Choi everyone!
Happy Niu Year =)
we miss you ah po and kung kung..

REUNION

-some random shots-

-pro wannabe-

-the koncos-

-showing her imba-ness with the master's supervision-

-candid-

-limbo limbo & boogie woogie-

- night fever!! overdosed with alcohol!-

-me, ahsou & justin- =)

-bulge and bundled..-

-the kins..few were missing-

the road trip will be next..
and lotsa soirees.
mahjong.. poker...

-Narration-

2009-01-20T01:00:00.003+08:00

at times i do feel that i am in a cat and mouse game
anybody interested? haha

i'm being enlightened by the miss
till now, i cant seem to grasp the profundity of hers
its like a high stakes poker game
weighing all the stakes on one single luck or remain patience
'fung sui lun lau juen' was the phrase *guess so
patience is a virtue
outplaying other bettors is not my intent
winning is important but virtues are the one the soul within weigh in the most

do i know how to outplay?
yes i do, i do know
but there was once, i am caught up in this
by doing so, for once or more you might stake it your way
but 'everyday is not sunday'
i treasure something more
those lil virtues and those bettors that i respect

often times, its not that i dont catch the catch
just that she dont see the sanenss and the why for
i do count my chips before i lay the stakes
its a one time go for a tourney
all the tenseness are pinching me all over
emotions are swinging like those metal pendulum

when i start to realize why the chips are going down
i start to fathom the 'unseen' and 'within'
some say a lil more faith and confidence is all i need
looking back with a worry behind those grin is what she do
and this causes amass of perplexity running through those thoughts
by the end of it, the voices answer to me
and that is when i know..
what is a good game

confidence and stability is what the soul within lack off
but yet i start to see the 'unseen' and why i am something to someone
i believe in those voices who answer to me
that is why i know what matters and what not

those who see with their heart,
they will fathom
those who see with their sight,
they are the ones who will loose all the ever good things in life
sound so complicated eh

poker poker!
anyone?

-Candor-

2009-01-15T01:51:00.002+08:00

there i am prancing in the meadow
abandoning the obfuscatory of existent
looking at the simplest thing and doting on unvarnished fine things

i've been coated lily white lately
unutterable is what defines the undescribable soul within

somehow somewhat i feel what she feels
she fathoms the 'unseen' and the 'to be seen'
she started the joke, but the joke was on me
and i started the joke, but the joke was on her
one step, tripped
two step, tottered
and three step still

finally, she giggles and cackled
looking at the puddle where she leap
turning her head around and there he is
the jester with the donk hard jumpers grinning at me
even though the speakable seems to be unspeakable
but yet, she fathoms the 'unseen' and the devotion

even though i might have tripped
but its nothing, but a mere scratch
and that lil gash will recover
because the jester with the donk hard jumpers is all worth it

-The Crooner-

2008-12-05T22:54:00.003+08:00

awww, my backbone is killing me.
had dinner and visited the kins today and i saw those pictos.. i just miss them loads. heard it frm popo lucy, they will be back next year.

lately, the pet and i are indulged in xbox.
thanks to the pet, i'm having 'the malady of Lead4Death'. its about subsist the leap of fatality from the imba contaminated fugly zombies.
we finito the game in a day, till the wee hours and dozed off around 4am.

-i will be away for a week+, and hopefully when the i'm back, things will be as pinkied *_*
-dec will be a moolah suction month and those color papers will be drained off..
-mumzy and dadzy will be off for a road trip with uncle seng tomorrow. since the mister just came back frm canada, he wanted to head off for a visitation back at kuantan.
me miss the tang, the serendipity and the kins.
-since the mister will be lodging, i'm forced to hibernate.
hence, pinning myself to the four walls and ditch those late nights loiters.
-i just got myself a jumper and its oh so topsy-turvy. the peeps were flabbergasted and reacted like this (@.@)
-went for pool sessione on monday and i saw mr.hunt. i dont even bother to acknowledge his existence, just gazes and stalks from him.

'i dont deserve you because someone like me should be lucky enough to have someone like you. remember? ah yes, you're right! i dont deserve you because i deserve someone better than who and what you are.'

having those brains and moolah doesnt make you any better. a humble pie to stuff you up is all you need. please dont tell me you know me where you dont.

i'll be having the 'official of the unofficial siblings' moment tomorrow and i get to pick my hearts.

lastly, me love you heaps my 'fat house cat' & you're the best thing ever.... to torment *evil grin.
like BKB told me,

'i deserve someone better than what he is & yes, thank you. i do love and heart what i have now. we'll always remain as the musketeers.'

-oyasumi-

-Twilight-

2008-12-02T02:00:00.003+08:00

are human being's sixth sense for danger, long dismissed by some scientists as myth, actually exists in a part of the brain that also handles conflict resolution?
somehow, somewhat, something is way beyond what mankind are capable of.

like i stated, often times we dont utter ourselves to senses.
why do our visions often perceive our thoughts?
is bypassing through or conscious mind will be the answer?
humans are sucha complex specimen, dont we?

mars, the god of war which is known as Ares
one of the most prominent ones.
somehow, somewhat i am drawn to it.
does it portray the evil within the human souls?
somehow, somewhat i realized it. dont you?
why do human whenever they see the bloody and violent side of mankind, they will somehow feel secure and satisfied?
perhaps it maybe the complete darkness, complete force of what mankind possessed.

will you live long enough to see the evil within consume you?
or
will you end yourself before it consume you?

can you take the destruction?

-Encode Decode-

2008-11-30T22:02:00.003+08:00

holiday is passing me by
well, its the official of the unofficial one.
yawnz.. i am sucha crap

i went for Ms.J's birthday bash few days ago at ttdi plaza.
the woman is sucha ulu queen and yes, its me first time since it opened. the mistress celebrated her b'day at wabisabi. often times, me heard this stead from mr.F. hmmzzz, not bad after all.
mr.f's niche lodge is better than what i anticipate. as promised, i quench on lime juice instead of liquor sipping.
i left early for the poker session and thanks to mr.stoner for the lift.
oh yea, before i left they were having this sakae bomb aka submarine thingy. it was oh so icky and stomach turning. i gave a toast and left.
when i was in ed's ride, i was in a quaint mode. once i arrived at shen's hse, the woman is in an idiosyncratic hype. and its all credited to mr.A and his cronies for that brew.
hence, i was a teapot, ka-men rider, babbler & yadas for that tick-tock hours.
yawnz..i am sucha crap

the up to date bygones:
went for buffet dinner with the pet at eastin. we're pleased with the international gourmet feast.
*not to mention the tang of the african serving

on Sat, went for hi tea at crown princess with the famlay. it was a ket-chup cum famlay homecoming session. met up with my long lost kin and somehow, i was the nanny for the day

met up with Kev at our lodging spot and divulged a lil bits of......
well, just keep it under wraps of trust
cheerios to you for the award and winnings. me saw your name on the papers
all the best to you in NY

i met up with BKB often times during exam week. the peculiarity of certain wink and inexplicable of significance is oh so speechless

from a pair of hammies to a famlay of 8. me just heart cuddles and the 5 lil pups
guess i need to split my panda brain just to name the newcomers

lately, the thoughts are sucha bothersome matter that i can't engulf.
it's been long since you consume the soul within.
wo chen de 'Que Yang' le.
wo gai zen me ban, wo chen de yao feng le!

-Booyah-

2008-11-11T04:23:00.003+08:00

I am feelin ya
Dont ya feel me
I am havin ya

Xx ICTUSES xX

-Tagged in Vain-

2008-11-09T11:05:00.005+08:00

About me:
Real name: Poon Sian Simm
Nickname: Start, Ah Sam, Chloe, Pandaren, Simmy, Pengda, Dulio, Jimmy
Married: Not married but attached
Zodiac Sign: Sagittarius
Male or Female: Female
High School: SM Sri Sentosa
College: Help University College
Short or long hair: Short hair
Are you a health freak?: yes and no
Height: 170 cm
Do you have a crush on someone?: Yeap
Do you like yourself?: Yeap
Piercings: Approx 10 piercings & 1 enlarged
Right of lefty: Righty

FIRST*
First surgery: infantile years
First piercing(s): L&R
First best friend: Elizabeth Tan
First award: Chess Competition Bronze med (Bangsar Zone), Std 6
First sport you joined: Netball
First pet: Hammie
First vacation: Singapore
First concert: Richie Ren
First crush: Aren.... *_*

CURRENTLY*
Eating: Nasi Lemak
Drinking: Coffee
I’m about to: Study

YOUR FUTURE*
Wants kids: certain
Want to get married: certain
Careers in mind: Musician, Painter & Remisier

WHICH ONE IS BETTER*
Lips or eyes: Lips
Hugs or kisses: Hugs
Shorter or taller: Definitely taller
Romantic or spontaneous: Spontaneous
Nice stomach or nice arms: Stomach
Trouble maker or hesitant: Trouble maker!

HAVE YOU EVER*
Drank bubbles: ???? (apa tu)
Lost glasses or contacts: Glasses, often times
Run away from home: Nope
Liked someone younger: No
Liked someone older: Yeap
Broken somone’s heart: definitely
Been arrested: No
Turned someone down: definitely
Cried when someone died: definitely
Liked a friend: Yep

DO YOU BELIEVE IN*
Yourself: Perhaps
Miracles: Not really
Love at first sight: Nope
Heaven: Nope
Sex on the first date: No
Angels: No

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY*
Is there one person you want to be with right now: Duh, of course
Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time: Nope
Do you believe in God: No, i believe in great Teachers

-Picto Filch-

2008-11-07T04:01:00.004+08:00

Some random pictos
Check out Mr.V 's rant..

-somehow, i have to post this. Mr.V, u look hideous =P-

-mr.V you're oh so wasted-

before dozing off, got a lil something frm mr.V
some of those captions were sucha jest.. farny and comical..
well, i have to respect mr.V for that night.
since when your alcohol tolerance was that good?
ahhhh,
those pictos are sickening..

-UpDharmaDown-

2008-11-06T21:27:00.009+08:00

the woman now is at her lodging spot.
guess she miss her green tea frap too much.
indulging herself with what she dote on the most.
newayz, i just got those picto frm Mr.J.
Guess i am back being Jimmy.

-Wayne's Birthday Bash-
**Courtesy of Mynjayz**

-this is the camera man aka mynjayz-

-the bday boy with the beer bong-

-hakim with his masak-masak-

-the blacktard feast-

-the pet and his 'thing'-

-alcohol = sickening + gg-

-viki V-

-Happy B'day Wayne-

ok, study time
ciao

-Time Flies-

2008-11-02T23:43:00.005+08:00

ticka tock, ticka tock
let me tie a red ribbon around the old tree trunk.
whisper to your soul
and listen to the breath of your life
skitter around the old tree trunk
and make a wish

-Picto doting-

2008-10-31T17:57:00.008+08:00

Finally i got those pictos.
how can i forget those.
his bday lasted for days.
heaps of surprises and blowouts.
your poker spree and casino munch.
your best-loved chows.. and yada yada..

-Happy Birthday! (091008)-

-Habitual-

2008-10-30T23:08:00.006+08:00

this is my second post of the month.
like i stated, 'she is inconstant with her deportment'.
just so you know, don't ya?
i am on a hectic run and hustling around the tick tock hours.
mass of papers i need to go through and heaps of dope to con.
euphonies and marlboro will keep me company.
not to forget, green tea frap.

often times, i am obscured by the misleads.
often times, i don't fathom why the paces are delusive.
may it be my fallacious thoughts bewildering the inner soul
or film strip like figments mocking me.
but for now, i am freeing myself from all limiting beliefs
and attend to my inner voice.

a week more, i'll be heading for a visitation.
and to pay my respect to her and him.
time pass me by day by day
dont you just linger and abide a little.
well, ill just measure up to those tick-tocks.

well, su headed back for convo on tues.
some pictos of our last outing.

-Redbox+, Gardens-

- limpehs for the day-

-close couzzie of mine-